Sparkle*Matrix

I've Ran Away.~

2006-08-11T11:21:00.000Z

Sparkle*Matrix has moved...http://sparklematrix.wordpress.com/

Sparkle*Announcement

2006-08-10T22:54:00.000Z

ANNOUNCEMENT! IS ANYONE ELSE HAVING PROBLEMOES UPLOADING PICTURES TO THEIR BLOG? PRAY TELL X

Edit... yes it is blogorama problems. Hurray said the Ms Sparkle*

Update: I have just been informed that Blogger has "bugs" in the system. Maybe MRSA? Methicilillin - Resistant Staphylococcus aureus. or Necrotising fasciitis? Have they been washing their hands properly...that's what I would like to know. Oh well...

Sparkle*s Museum of Patriarchal Sexual Oddities~Now Supplies Free Sick Bags

2006-08-09T16:51:00.000Z

My friend Mary K* who often posts under the mysterious guise of anon, yoo hoo-its me- and other various espionage type
secret coded comments wrote me regarding issuing sick/vomit/barff/spew bags at entry point to the museum. Hey, man! What a truly fantastic idea! Preventing nasty puddles of the inevitable projectile vomit at sight of patriarchal oddities. She also had some fantastic ideas for all you activists out there, well the ones who are past the “eee na I’d feel lika reet divvy**” so read on…

“The sick bags are actually a necessity now and something I carry around at
the present time, what with all the playboy crap for little girls on sale, and
the prolific visibility of lad's mags etc - now there is an activism idea if I
ever thought of one - I will make an obvious gesture of defiance one day in
front of the lad's mags sections, using some sort of bag, and make really loud
retching noises for all to see/hear, whilst heaving into my handy bag! I am
getting braver and braver these days“

So go on…the sick bag…the latest trend in activism!

Please excuse the crappy prototype for the barff bag, but as Sparkle* has spent her entire life (aye since a was 3 years old) as a healthcare professional, these paint shop thingies leave her needing technophobratron therapy. What would you rather have? a designer barff bag, or errr feeling safe with a mad Geordie woman health care professional... Exactly!

*Geordie slang for-Oh no I would feel silly.

** Mary K is a friend

Full Moon Goddess Sophia~Goddess Of Female Wisdom

2006-08-09T15:49:00.000Z

Sophia Goddess Of Female Wisdom - The Black Madonna, whose symbol is the dove
Sophia represents that the female is coming into a period of enlightment, and that it would be advisable to create time for deep, silent, contemplation. Sophia’s themes are about honouring the need to study and the quest for knowledge that liberates women’s souls, learning to respect our instinctive knowing and to value it. Sophia helps us in knowing when to speak and when to be silent. In our lives, we need to find women’s wisdom - knowledge that enlightens and enables rather that just informs.

This card was drawn at random last night to celebrate the full moon today.

The Alter Of The Sparkle*Matrix

2006-08-08T20:42:00.000Z

I am in a posting of the nice pictures mood today, so I thought I would share with you, a picture of my alter.

Daa~~ daarr~~ Sparkle*s alter on the eve of the full moon. August 9th festival of Leo @10:55 GMT. Fully prepared for Sophia, the Goddess of female wisdom.

You Have Been Tagged!

2006-08-08T15:48:00.000Z

Nothing to do with criminal activity by the way!

Tagged by V at ReSISTERance

1. One book that changed your life? Robert A Johnson: Femininity lost and regained. Not a feminist book, but wrote by a Jungian Psychologist who is basically saying that if this planet does not get an equal balance of male and female energy established soon…then the world is fucked.

2. One book you have read more than once? Andrea Dworkin: Intercourse

3. One book you would want on a desert island? Colouring-in book with a pen (is that cheating?)

4. One book that made you laugh? Cannot remember the exact title but it I think it was: Travelling around Ireland with a fridge

5. One book that made you cry?
Andrea Dworkin: Life and Death

6. One book you wish had been written? The Real Truth Why (ok some) Men Hate Us

7. One book you wish had never been written? Malleus Maleficarum. The most evil piece of deranged misogyny ever put into print. I have compared it to an early modern equivalent of hate-speech represented today by pornography

8. One book you are currently reading? Starhawk: Spiral Dance (again)

9. One book you have been meaning to read? Are Women Human

10. Now tag five people.

I Tag...

1) Diary of Barbies Worst Enemy
2) I’m not a feminist but…
3) Charliegrrl
4) Lonergrrl
5) Biting Beaver

Sparkle*s Museum of Patriarchal Sexual Oddities

2006-08-07T12:56:00.000Z

Women were viewed as objects, brought to life in the ab(user‘s) mind when the male decided, to satisfy his sexual pleasure. The perfect plastic doll was interchangeable with the breathing and has a pulse variety. Neither variety experienced pain, unless that was what the male chose to fantasise, but it was not real pain for females were not strictly human.
There was even a book wrote about this entitled “Are women human” by Dr. Catharine Alice MacKinnon

The deteriorated but still legible literature supplied with the “Houston”* doll pictured above reads.

"Vibrating and sucking jelly mouth, this little chick has a soft pink vagina and anus made of a soft stretchy material called "senso"
Houston has lifelike moulded breasts and stands less than 5 feet tall** She has an embedded vibrating bullet for extra sensations in the vagina and anus, controlled by a manual squeeze bulb. The vagina has a delicious citrus aroma*** and both the mouth and vagina can accommodate a penis up to 1.25 inches wide" Patriarchologists believe this is an accurate indicator that the patriarchy did indeed have a small penis, also hypothesised by Soopermouse.

The Patriarchologists view

'The behaviour of these men is very unhealthy,' says clinical patriarchologist Amazon Warrior. 'They were motivated by the desire to avoid rejection. They also share a need for control, which is demonstrated by the pleasure they took in designing their ideal woman, then making all the moves and decisions in their “partner's” life. This control fixation is usually a reaction to a bad experience, where sex has been a source of humiliation. Indeed the small penis hypothesis is of great significance here. These dolls allowed their owners to indulge in fantasies that would be criminal acts in the real world, such as under-age sex. The doll could have either been an outlet for this desire or, worryingly, could have made the man more likely to act it out in real life.'

*Porn star Houston is said to resemble Bo Derek. Her adult films include Cum Junkies, Crotch Crunch, and Squat On My Twat.

**Suggestive of either a small woman or a child

***So not only was the natural scent of the vulva not acceptable but it was also necessary for it to have a “masculine” appealing aroma suggestive of a masculine vagina.

(Note these sex doll details are genuine with err a little bit of tweaking)

Router Suddenly Reinvents Her Self

2006-08-07T12:27:00.000Z

Strange goings on at the house of the Sparkle*Matrix, as Ruby Router suddenly springs to life with internet activity. After protracted telephone conversation with a charming man in India, where detailed diagnostic testing proved beyond doubt that Ruby Router had expired.
Without any personal or group therapy she has chose to be re-born, to reinvent herself, the metaphor for Sparkle*Matrix has not gone un- noticed.

Communications Breakdown

2006-08-06T12:06:00.000Z

Hi
I will be out of action for a week or two as my Router has gone phitttt. B.T. promise a replacement in 5-10 days, Hmmm
Sparkle*greetings

Houses Of Patriarchy ~Under New Management

2006-08-05T19:21:00.000Z

Welcome, friends, to the Sparkle Museum of patriarchal sexual oddities, an unforgettable collection of all that humankind swore to forget, but which I have trapped in agonizing clarity to remember always. Step carefully and rejoice that the rule of the patriarchy has ended and I present to you the lowest that mankind have travelled.
Pictured above; are my premises that I gathered for a “snip” of a price at £3:50. I believe it was previously a dancing in the laps of men club.

Formally known as the Houses of Patriarchy

Sparkle*s Museum of Patriarchal Sexual Oddities

2006-08-05T14:55:00.000Z

Now that we have experienced the end of the Patriarchal Period, I have decided to set up a museum dedicated to some of the patriarchy’s sexual behaviour. To celebrate their demise in what the patriarchologists describe as an intriguing mystery. This museum is a reminder of pre equality, and will span many oddities pertaining to men and their desire to view women, children and animals as objects. I would prefer for this memorial and teaching aid to evolve as organically as possible. It will therefore be in a series of posts as I continue to have discussions with survivors and peruse my own personal research.

Firstly, I have been able to purchase a perfect venue at a large building in my home town of Geordie Land, which I believe was formerly a Lap dancing club? Where I have been led to believe that women danced in the laps of men? I am sure, this must have been a painful experience for the lap dance receiver’s as women trampled and pranced on the men's genital regions. Anyway, I digress - the building is no longer needed, for with the demise of the Patriarchy also came about the collapse of capitalism. I have therefore 'picked it up' for a snip of £3:50. (For my U.S. and Australian cousins I think this is roughly $2:00) Whatever? it dosen't really matter these days.

Admission Fees

Gynae.........Free
Andro..........Free
Paed...........Free

Blayboy Logo Has No Pornographic Connections (within their "target market" )~WH Smut's Spokeswoman, From Planet Zog

2006-08-04T17:59:00.000Z

This is the response I have received from the WH Smith’s (a.k.a. WH Smut) representative, Linda Robbins, concerning my complaint that WH Smut butt are promoting the merchandise of a Pornographer to young girls. Those of the bearing of the - sickly - pinky - nauseating little bunny logo.

Dear Anna,
Thank you for your email, expressing your views about our ‘Playboy’ range of stationery.

We introduced this range reacting to the current trends that appeal to our customers, especially as ‘Playboy’ has grown in popularity amongst our teenage market.

*Research has also indicated that this logo is now an established fashion brand which the target market do not relate back to any pornographic connections it once had.

I’m sorry that you are offended by this range, as this is certainly not our intention. However, due to its popularity, we do not currently have any plans to withdraw it from sale. Your feedback is valuable to us as we do try to strike the right balance in meeting the needs of all our customers, which inevitably means a compromise when customers have strongly differing views. I’d like to assure you that we will continue to monitor the feedback we receive and we will take your specific comments into consideration when we next review this matter.

Once again, thank you for taking the time to write to us.

Yours sincerely
Linda Robbins
Customer Service Coordinator
REF 1-4821880

WH Smut have also sent me a copy of their latest catalogue, see top of page.

*Please note I have replied requesting the *research findings*

~WHSmut was conceived by my friend Mary K: A frequent source of inspiration~

Consumption and identity

2006-08-03T15:02:00.000Z

W.H.Smith continue to defend their promotion of Playboy stationary aimed mainly at pre-pubescent girls.

However, for W.H.Smith it is a style choice. "We believe it is a fashion range," says Evans. "There's no inappropriate imagery. It is just the bunny. It's a bit of fun, popular and fashionable."

I agree W.H.Smith, there is no ‘inappropriate imagery, but neither is there anything ’inappropriate’ in the Nazi Swastika, which is also just an image. It is the message behind the image that carries the power, when it becomes a symbol of something else.

Imagine trying to use a Swastika to promote a product.

Imagine defending your choice of advertising imagery by declaring that the swastika is merely a Mandala symbolising ones' ultimate goal on the spiritual path. There is no “inappropriate imagery” It is just a Mandala, pretty and spiritual, and was celebrated for years as a meditative tool before the Nazi party used it as THEIR symbol.

Out With Her Tongue!

2006-08-03T10:59:00.000Z

Anyone, who has visited this blog for any length of time, will have realised that I have a fascination concerning the witch-hunts conducted in mostly the 14th -17th centaury. I see many parallels and symbolism for the present day, harking back to the witch craze phenomena of this early modern period of history. While this is not a post of sorts, which would be the Witch Hunts part VIII, I instantly noticed a parallel drawing together the experiences of women and abuse, and the silencing of women down through the ages. History has a habit of repeating its self.

Some Background Of The Accused Female Awaiting Trial
Sexual mutilation and torture for accused witches, who were held in custody was not uncommon and in some areas, actively encouraged to extract “confessions“. With the orthodox understanding that divinity had little or nothing to do with the physical world, sexual desire was perceived to be ungodly. When the men persecuting the accused witches found themselves sexually aroused, they assumed that such desire emanated, not from themselves, but from the women. They attacked breasts and genitals with pincers, pliers, specially designed instruments and red-hot irons. Some rules condoned sexual abuse by allowing men deemed "zealous Catholics" to visit female prisoners in solitary confinement while never allowing female visitors.

Unless the witch died during torture, she was taken to the stake. Contrary to belief most UK witches* were strangled first and then burnt at the stake. The burning whilst alive was abandoned, as it began to illicit sympathy from the crowd. Firstly for the actual death by fire and secondly the "witch" would often publicly condemn her rapists and tortures‘, as she slowly burnt to death, which of course, was not desirable to the beholders of great Christian values. It was then decided that it would be desirable to hang the “witches” before the burning. The hangings took place in public squares, and the inquisitors prevented the victims from talking to the crowds--by the cutting out of her tongue** prior to the walk to the gallows. Thus preventing the victim from relating the horror and torture she had experienced.

Three hundred or so years ago, men cut out the tongue of the "Witch” on her way to the Gallows, silencing her, so that she could not speak her truth. Today, hundreds of years on, when women create a collective to be heard, they attempt to silence us by the sabotaging of our groups, our metaphorical tongue, and our voice.

Out with her tongue!

*Women, condemned to death accused of "Witchcraft" in England were hung or garrotted before burning at the stake. However the torture of "Witches" in England was illegal, but practiced extensively in Scotland.
**Inquisitors held that this was performed, to prevent the “Witch” cursing her tortures

The End Of The Patriarchal Period

2006-08-03T09:40:00.000Z

At the end of the Patriarchal Period, all the patriarchy died out. Why this happened, is one of the most frequently asked - and intriguing - questions asked by patriarchologists.

There have been many different ideas put forward to explain why the patriarchy died out. The two most likely are that their habitat slowly changed, and that a feminist uprising triggered their extinction.

Gradualist theory
The gradualist hypothesis points to declines in the numbers and diversity of different groups of misogynists and apologists.
It suggests that the extinction of these groups was due to a political climate change. The climate at the end of the patriarchal period was changing - and a fall in lad’s mags and other pornography reduced the patriarchal animal habitats.

Impact theory
The impact hypothesis gets a lot of press coverage because it is spectacular. There is good archival evidence for the occurrence of a feminist impact at the end of the Patriarchal.
A band of feminist activism rich in the mineral, Female-Powerchlorate was deposited at the end of the Patriarchal period and has been found at many places in the world. This mineral was rare on Earth but more common in feminist literature.
It has been suggested that the impact would have triggered a pornography and prostitution nuclear winter scenario that would have caused the death of the patriarchy.

Volcano
At the end of the Patriarchal period there were many Radical feminist eruptions, at least in some parts of the world.
It was finally realised that women were human; Pornographers, rapists, pimps and Johns were incarcerated into museums causing huge environmental changes over a wide area.

Will we ever know?
Unfortunately, while these hypotheses are plausible and they can both explain how many of the misogynists became extinct, neither can explain why certain men died out while others survived. Why did the patriarchy, which was so successful, die out, while other animals such as women and pro-female males, which we know are environmentally sensitive, survive?
Although it is usually assumed that the patriarchy all became extinct all at the same time all over the world, the truth of the matter is that we do not really know yet. As these phenomena’s are studied more intensively, we will be able to gather more data and build up a more comprehensive picture of what was going on in the world at the end of the Patriarchal period.

What Is Good For The Goose Is Good For The Gander?

2006-08-01T09:23:00.000Z

It is by no way a new observation that while women are expected to accept acres of naked female flesh as the norm, some men feel positively threatened by the reverse.
Everything about the female body, it would seem is viewed as public property, or should that be men’s property. Breasts, buttocks, genitalia, you name it are available by the glance of an eye at the newsagent, the turn of a page, or now with the www the press of a button. Everything regarding a woman’s life has been sexualised. Even a trip the the Gynaecologist has been turned into a lecherous Doctor event evident in the Porn sites displaying vaginal and breast examinations by the ‘Dirty Doctor’. Sites displaying titles such as “See cute Asian girls getting horrific medical examinations”
As we all know, there is little opportunity for women to witness how men may feel when tables are turned, so to speak.

However, I have a personal example of an occasion when a very ‘liberal’ minded ex of mind positively bristled with anxiety at the view of acres of naked male flesh. We had watched the documentary regarding “Designer Vaginas” on the TV, not a peep was heard from my ex as we watched perfectly normal vaginas been snipped and tided. I of course muttering and cursing that ‘here we go again’ pornification of freaking everything (that’s another story)
The following week we watched “Designer Penises” Oh this is good! Sparkle* thinks, a glimpse into the male psych regarding their tackle and the insecurities that having tackle can bring. Not so for my ex, whom I could see squirming, fidgeting and borderline hyperventilating. Suddenly he burst out “I don’t feel very comfortable with you looking at all of these cocks!”

You What!

Free Speech And Anti-Censorship~Hypocrisy At Its Finest

2006-07-31T17:53:00.000Z

In response to the hacking and the resultant wrecking of havoc at APAN; here is a follow up to my previous post “Free Speech And Anti-Censorship My Ass”

Free speech and anti-censorship-- censored by the Pornographers and the supporters of pornography. Hypocrisy at its finest, courtesy of the pro porn squad.

Hustling The Left
Hustling the left’s website use the first Amendment right to expose and critique hate speech. They focus on corporate Pimp and pornographer Larry Flynt because so many politicos and pundits from the left have failed to comment on, much less confront Flynts hate speech.

OPEN LETTER TO MEN Who Say They Believe in Freedom and Equality by Nikki Craft.

....men who degrade and mutilate women's bodies in the name of sexuality, profit
and entertainment. Pornographers have empires, which they use to encourage
oppression and violence against a class of persons who do not now have, and
never had, the civil rights vouchsafed to men as a class. The First Amendment
belongs to those who can afford to buy"
FEMINISTS UNCOVERING CENSORSHIP KNOWLEDGEABLY
F.U.C.K. is an acronym for Feminists Uncovering Censorship Knowledgeably. F.U.C.K. is a multi-gendered, multi-racial, multi-ethnic, cross-class network of feminist activists dedicated to fostering ethical and anti-oppressive, anti-repressive speech acts which expose unethical and oppressive and repressive speech acts.
“There are those who say illogic is the native tongue of anything with
tits…(women) speak not from the heart but from the gash, and chances are that at
least once a month your chick will stop you dead in your tracks with a
masterpiece of cunt rhetoric…the one surefire way to stop those feminine lips
from driving you crazy is to put something between them–like your cock, for
instance.”--Hustler* [Larry Flynt]

“When he speaks,[Larry Flynt] he controls who gets to see and hear his speech-acts. We are showing you his speech, so you know what he is saying. We leave it to you to decide if he is for "freedom", a term which we assume has real meaning in real people's lives.” (F.U.C.K.)

Larry Flynt's corporate-pimp speech is spoken with a patriarchal accent, somehow
through a vagina. Exactly how is it that a woman's open vulva became his
mouthpiece?--Julian Real.

I ask you; who is it that really has Free Speech?

*Note: I have included "Hustling the left" in my side bar. Please note this site is NOT work friendly and may contain triggering content*

Which Mouse Would You Have Mousing In Your Anus?

2006-07-31T07:39:00.000Z

I have had some weird, pornographic, violent and even funny search results show up on my Site Meter, which could be the subject of a whole post*. This one however has me a tad worried; “mouse in anus” repeat “mouse in anus” where are these people’s minds? To be honest I have heard of people using small furry animals to insert in their rectums for some sort of sexual pleasure, but never expected someone to be directed to my site. I used to work as a nurse and we experienced the odd visitor to casualty with something stuck in a body cavity. Usually a rectally inserted vibrator** that had gone on a vibrating walkabout to the nether regions of the large intestines, but a mouse, I mean what would it do? Would it want to stay up there and do some sort of tunnelling expedition? Alternatively, do you think my searcher meant a computer ‘mouse‘? Now that sounds more like it! Phew!

* What am I yaking about, this is a whole post.
** If you are going to insert a vibrator into your rectum remember the following:
i) Keep a hold of it, OR
ii) buy a purpose based rectal 'stimulator' with a flange that stops the colonic pilgrimage effect.

Free Speech And Anti-Censorship My Ass!

2006-07-30T15:50:00.000Z

APAN's website has been hacked, and here is their description of the purpose of the site.

“This site was created as an answer to those who claim that “everyone uses porn,” and to those who try to make you feel isolated and weird because you’re uncomfortable with pornography use. One of the goals of pro-porners is to get you to think you’re uncool or asexual because you don’t like porn, like you’re the one with the problem. As a result, far too many people - especially women - go around thinking they’re the “only ones” who dislike porn, and we know that simply isn’t true. Our goal is to make you feel more comfortable about your discomfort with porn. You are definitely not the only one. ”

APAN have lost data for the ‘No Porn Pledge’ and passwords have been changed so that new entries from pro-porn supporters cannot be deleted.
The obligatory unimaginative pictures of the penis and the vagina have infiltrated the site (do they think we are right wing fundies?)

I find it very interesting that these so called ‘pro-free speech’ ‘anti-censorship, whingers, whiners and the throwing of tantrums squad, feel the need to attack an anti-pornstution site?

Do they feel threatened that their wank bank materiel might be taken away? No fucking chance, I do not think that is going to happen, not in my lifetime anyway.

Do they think the abuse of women might be looked at more closely and changes might start happening? Not yet...but it's on its way.

Quite simply this surrounds power issues-- they RESENT women having a voice, to dare challenge the Pimps, Johns, Pornographers and the sad little creeps that have a wank a day over abusing females.

Because remember, a porn wank a day keeps the women just a lay.

Free speech and anti-censorship my ass! More like male fucking control freaks.

APAN I know this is no help what so ever, but, women-- you must be doing SOMETHING right, or these evil little abusers would not have given you the time of day.

*Not an exactly eloquent post, but this has came directly from a place of anger*

Sparkle*voodoo™ Doll Kit

2006-07-30T08:59:00.000Z

A thoroughly modern Sparkle*voodoo™ Doll kit, complete with dolls, cocktail sticks and a variety of entertaining anti-patriarchy spells and techniques. With the Sparkle*voodoo™ Doll kit, your ‘nicest’ wishes are only a cocktail prick away! An essential for any Feminist seriously opposing the Patriarchy. Attractively boxed & a perfect fun gift!
Why not use it at Feminist get togethers? The impaled Sparkle*voodoo™ Doll is ideal for presenting nibbles and snacks. Just think, you can be, discussing the latest feminist theory while not only conveying ‘nicest wishes’ to the Patriarchy, but munching tasty titbits in the most Feminist of ways!

*The Sparkle*voodoo™ Doll was inspired by a comment left on my site by Sarah Louise Parry of Barbie’s worst nightmare*

“And perhaps in the gift shop they'll flog voodoo dolls of sexist pigs that you can stick pins in, out of respect for the women who went before them who had to put up with that shit and when they complained were just told to 'lighten up'.”

OH NOOOO!

2006-07-29T20:51:00.000Z

Oh no! A blogger friend has just asked me for a link for the video I mentioned in the "Sex Machine" post. Therefore, I toddle off to find the offending article and set to send it to blogger matey. All going smoothly until I noticed that I had not ticked for individual email address only, and instead it went to EIGHT addresses in my account. Luckily enough this is an account I keep in a mans' name, for times such as this of course, and when I checked I think 7 of them are now de-funct addresses. Except that is for the remaining one. Well one’s not too bad I hear you think NOOOOOO it is BAD the remaining one was for the Buddhist Centre where I did their Buddhist meditation and philosophy course about three years ago. Shit you may think-- but no, I did not only do this once, but TWICE yes FUCKING TWICE. I hope they think it is just spam…please.

*This video is graphic and horrible*

I have had a vision

2006-07-29T07:22:00.000Z

I guess that in a few years time this is what the patriarchy will look like… a dinosaurian pile of bones in your local museum.
Oh, look miss the school kids will say “the patriarchy” in excited squeaks. The Schoolmarms tone however will be more hushed. Oh, yes the 'patriarchy' she will whisper, you do not even begin to know what it was like living under such an oppressive regime. Sigh! You know so little my children.

I have realised that trawling around the bowels of misogynist/paedophiliac and other sphincter releasing material has left me with a bit of a twitch...oh well nothing 40mg of Propranolol* wont cure

* Propranolol is a beta- adrenergic blocking agent, which blocks the action of the sympathetic nervous system. It reduces the heart rate and is useful in treating abnormally rapid heart rhythms. Very useful when dealing with the likes of the Daily Squirt/Pervy Pumpers et al.

Cards For Friendships

2006-07-28T21:36:00.000Z

As I mentioned in the previous post I've made a card for a friend; well I thought I would post a picture of that as well! Seeing that I am reflecting on nice things for a change.
We have been friends since school and our relationship is very special.

*If you enlarge on the picture it shows Lavender the fairy suggesting making a spell. In side of the card, is the spell for my friend to make a wish*

My View On Things

2006-07-28T21:12:00.000Z

I have decided to post a short and sweet about something nice. This is one of the fields behind my house, and to the left, just out of view are the woods. I recognised today that I need to get grounded as I am feeling a bit frayed, so up to the field I went and sat right in the middle, done my ‘body exercise’ which is a form of meditation, and sat a while. I then came home, cooked some whole foods, burnt some oils and made a card for my friends birthday. Taking time out works for me.
Sparkle*

Call Me Cynical~Pervy Pumpers

2006-07-28T09:40:00.000Z

This is an article at the Melon Farmers, who remember-- protect paedophiles, filed in the UK Censorship section.

It gives four sites where there has been problems concerning children creating their own homepage, giving personal details and sometimes intimate photographs of themselves. Call me cynical but why has Melon Farmers given the names of these sites? These findings were first highlighted in a Guardian article.
Ok they have not given full addresses, but I can imagine they would not be that hard to find. One site is even described as ****.com.

“The government-backed watchdog the Child Exploitation and Online Protection
Centre will say today it has begun an inquiry young people's networking sites
after concern from teachers and parents.They have become alarmed at how children
are using the sites such as *******,.********,*********,and now **** to display
personal details and, in some cases, intimate photographs of themselves. It is
estimated that 61% of UK children aged 13 to 17 have a personal profile on a
networking site, which enable a user to create their own homepage, exhibit
photographs and socialise online. Of the 8 million children in the UK with
access to the internet, one in 12 says they have gone on to meet someone whom
they initially encountered online.
The latest site to come under scrutiny -
****.com - organises networks around school or college communities, and has
attracted 25 million members since its launch 18 months ago. A few children have
begun showing pictures of themselves in sexual poses, semi-naked or wearing
lingerie. One headteacher has called in police after discovering more than 700
of her students had signed up with ****, and that some were displaying images
she considered to be indecent.
Linda Wybar, headteacher of Tunbridge Wells
girls' grammar, also banned the site from her school and wrote to every parent
about her concerns.In a statement, **** said: **** has taken the issues of
privacy and safety very seriously since its inception and was one of the first
social networking sites to partner with organisations like wiredsafety.org to
create safety tips on issues such as cyberbullying and online safety. We
prominently post links to these safety tips for parents and *****’s on our
homepage and all profiles have a 'report abuse' link where members can report
other members for inappropriate content or behaviour.
Ahead of today's
announcement by the Ceop, which was set up by the government two months ago, the
head of the agency, Jim Gamble, told the Guardian: We've got a specific interest
in social networking sites simply because it is 'the' new phenomenon, it is how
young people are coming together and capitalising on a range of different
technologies. Basically, they're inviting friends to be members of private
groups or inviting others to view public materials.In many ways that's a good
thing for children, a great opportunity. In other ways it represents everything
you see on the school playground - *the only difference is that in this
playground, there are no teachers or police or moderators to keep an eye on what's going on"
*Broadcasted by the Melons*
Like I've said, call me cynical, probably because i am AND why is it filed under "UK Censorship"?

Mother

2006-07-27T18:48:00.000Z

My mother died ten years ago today, and I would like to dedicate Kali to her. Though not what I would exactly call a feminist, she had some radical opinions on men, marriage and relationships. Married and divorced twice by 1973, both of her instigation--an unusual accomplishment for a woman of her generation, after which at 38 she remained by her choice ‘single‘. She gave me some useful advice over the years, but the one that has stuck the strongest, is that you do not hang around in a relationship that is not working…get the hell out. Cheers mother x

"I AM the Annihilator of all and anything that is not worthy of keeping."

2006-07-27T16:40:00.000Z

Kali is a Hindu/Tibetan/Nepalese Goddess of destruction and creation.

I do not know if I have mentioned on here before that I enjoy inviting the goddess’s into my life. I have a permanent shrine/alter set up and usually have a dedicated goddess for whom I feel strengths and characteristics I could do with right now. At the moment I have Kali, a very misunderstood and sometimes feared goddess. My ex used to get slightly worried when I had an alter 'on the go' representing all things Kali.
Kali is a Hindu/Tibetan/Nepalese Goddess of destruction and creation. She is the womb and the tomb. Regardless of religion, women can look to her as a symbol of female power and be inspired by all aspects of this complex Goddess.

Kali is the destroyer of demons.

We must work to destroy the "demons" that are the result of the patriarchy. This might sound a bit dramatic, but the effects of a patriarchal culture eat at female’s souls just as surely as mythological demons
For those who worship Kali, each woman is a representative of the Goddess. Pornography and misogyny in the media promote and encourage violence against women and children including rape, bestiality, incest, paedophilia, necrophilia and death to get that even more intense and satisfying male orgasm. What is left for fucks sake, digging skeletons up and fucking them? The pelvic area would be a tad 'spacey' but hey! the eye sockets would be perfect!
M Mmm the male orgasm must be the priciest sensation on this lonely planet.

Kali was depicted with four to twelve arms, dark skinned or black, with bare breasts. In most common images of Kali she holds a sword in one hand and a head in another while her other two hands encourage worshippers. In one carving, she stands on the prone body of her husband/son Shiva. She wears a necklace of usually twelve skulls,
Her more benevolent nature is something overlooked by many Westerners. She is a creator as well as a destroyer. In order to have creation, we must also have destruction. Her rituals are intended to put the worshipper in tune with the female essence at all levels, to empower women by giving them a sense of what they can accomplish, and to give women tools to fight the effects of patriarchy.

You rock Kali!!

Give Away Comment For Today

2006-07-26T19:34:00.000Z

The Melon Farmers commenting on a report of female sex trafficking...

"Good to read a report free of the much exaggerated concept of trafficking"

Therefore, the newly christened Pervy Pumpers obviously feel that reports of trafficking are 'much exaggerated' Well they would-- wouldn‘t they?--protectors extraordinaire of misogyny, paedophilia, rape and necrophilia.

Picture of a Pumkin falling to its splatter

Artwork by Al Natanagara

Discussion On Lad's Mags~Guardian

2006-07-26T07:25:00.000Z

This pornography must be out of our children's reach Sexually explicit ladmags and newspapers should be consigned to the top shelf, says Claire Curtis-Thomas. Discussion and an article at the Guardian

The Guardian

(edit that link moved sharpish!)

Counterbalance~ Courtesy Of The Internet

2006-07-25T19:02:00.000Z

What follows are some musings that have been swimming around for a couple of days. Yesterday a friend voiced the same feelings without me having said anything, which leads me to muse into type.

With the introduction of the internet and the resultant green light for misogynists, paedophiles and downright dangerous men, it has been for me, such an eye opener- that I can’t ever be shrunk again and just go back to sleep. In neither addition, nor do I intend to ever do so. Lately I’ve spent quite some time wading through sites such as the Daily Squirt and the newly christened Pervy Pumpers, and believe me it hasn’t been easy. Sometimes there is actually an eary silence in my head as I find some other incredible evidence of female hatred. Maybe the silence is a form of protection, or maybe it is shock and disbelief? Then why do it? Some Trolls may ask. The answer is because I want to and I can! Just like pervs want to and they can! I can handle what I see, because at least that way I know what we are up against.

However, in an ironic way the Internet has provided us with a counterbalance. I know that at least we Radfems can all band together, activate, discuss, cry, debate, support and even sometimes have a good fucking laugh at their expense. I used to so feel isolated in my beliefs, a bit of a strange oddity, going along, as so not to appear 'prudish' I did not even realise until fairly recently [that is] in the grand scheme of things-- there was such a strong voice against pornsitution and paedophilia, which was not ran by fundi right wing -nuts

You want to change the world? It starts right here on the internet

Goddess Send For Women~The Sex Machine~

2006-07-24T13:25:00.000Z

**Warning this post has some potential trigger material**

This morning I decided to have a wee ramble through the bowels of the Daily Squirt™ when I came across a video of the *Howard Stern Sex Machine. This was shot in an audition sort of way, complete with pervs sat behind desks, and multiple crewmembers that couldn’t wait to get involved in the “audition.” Without going into too much detail, (yes this is not classed as detail) it involves a woman been penetrated by a thrusting machine complete with an 8” dildo on the end of a mechanical machine. Don’t worry a condom was used, because it had “been in another woman” Anyway to cut a long story short this woman was groaning, panting, juddering, begging for more, I THINK SHE “ORGASIMED” She even “broke” the machine. Oh what a little minxxx!

I found this fascinating because I have just started reading research into the female orgasm. Starting with Freud In 1905, he argued that clitoral orgasm was an adolescent phenomenon, and upon reaching puberty, the proper response of mature women changes to vaginal orgasms. While Freud did not provide evidence supporting this basic assumption, the consequences of the theory were greatly elaborated thereafter. Without going into acres of research and speculation, the simple fact is the accepted figure for the number of women who can reach orgasm only by manual stimulation of the clitoris, is **70 per cent. This has not changed Dr Freud!

Except in Pornography, it would seem! I know that this is a myth that many men actually believe, because they have told me. Of course I’m not saying that because ‘some’ men have told me that they think female porn stars are actually enjoying the sex and *cumin*, that ALL men are so stupid. That’s before anybody starts jumping up and down crying whaaaaa.
Any way to get back to the gist of this post.Women... if you have patriarchal problems with orgasm through penis penetrative sex only, try the Sex Machine for fucks sake…You do not know what ya missing!

* Also available as a download for your mobile phone. Just what I want to be sat next to on the train.

**Gynaecology, by R. W. Shaw, W. P. Soutter and S. L. Stanton,(Don’t worry I’ve done a lot more research)

A Metaphor For Women In Chains?

2006-07-22T23:11:00.000Z

(Just out of curiosity)
For anybody just passing...what's your words to this picture?
(edit read Witchy-woos' comment...chilling)

The actual title is...

US jails 'shackle pregnant women'

The US must stop shackling pregnant female prisoners when they are giving birth, Amnesty International has said.
"The routine use of restraints on pregnant women... [is] a cruel and unusual practice that can rarely be justified," the group said in a report.
Only one state currently bans leg irons on female inmates while they are being taken to hospital during labour.
*US government policy urges measures to ensure foetuses are not harmed if a pregnant prisoner is restrained.
Though these are pregnant women, they are still convicted felons, and sometimes violent
Dina Tyler, Arkansas Department of Corrections
The New York Times described the case of one pregnant inmate whose legs were allegedly shackled together during 12 hours of labour, despite requests by a doctor and two nurses that she not be restrained.
"The doctor who was delivering the baby made them remove the shackles for the actual delivery at the very end," lawyer Cathleen Compton told the newspaper.
**Shawanna Nelson had been jailed in Arkansas for identity fraud and writing bad cheques. She gave birth in 2003 at age 30, the newspaper said.
She is suing the prison and Correctional Medical Services, claiming she suffers ongoing back pain and damage to her sciatic nerve because she was largely unable to move during her labour.
The defendants deny having harmed Ms Nelson, the New York Times said, citing court papers.
Arkansas defends its policy.
"Though these are pregnant women, they are still convicted felons, and sometimes violent in nature," Dina Tyler, a spokeswoman for the Arkansas Department of Corrections, told the newspaper.
***"There have been instances when we've had a female inmate try to hurt hospital staff during delivery."

I found this picture across at Women’s Space and to quote Heart

“I think it’s a metaphor for what this nation is doing to women and girls
just in general: we are being silenced, shackled, forced to bear and care for
babies no matter what our choices might be in the matter, forced to bow to, and
submit to, the woman-hating gods of the male imagination”
* What about the woman?
** Obviously a great threat of violence (without knowing the case of course)
*** As an ex nurse, I've been confronted with violence in many instances, but we didn't scream 'straight jacket' or 'shackles'

The Madness Hamsters

2006-07-22T16:17:00.000Z

This is a picture of my dear departed hamster that left this world almost one year ago. She was the most tame and friendly hamster I have ever met, and also extremely talented. She left me this ditty to remember her by…

The Madness Hamsters
Every night they visit you
Every night they come
And bit by bit
They steal your brain
And feed it to their MUM

~I have published this in memorial for her birthday, which would have been this month~

Planned Parenthood federation~Fake Clinics

2006-07-21T17:03:00.000Z

I have just received this email from the Planned Parenthood Federation. Just read it when you get a moment, quite honestly it makes my blood run cold. Just when are “people” going to stop meddling in women’s reproductive rights? It’s NONE of their business!

Dear Anna,I've written to you about so-called "crisis pregnancy centres" before: the fake "clinics" set up by anti-choice groups to mislead women in their most vulnerable moments, which have received $30 million in government grants since 2001.But a shocking new report out of Congress exposes exactly what our tax dollars are paying for — word by chilling word. It's hard proof that federally funded programs are dispensing misinformation and outright FALSEHOODS.I recently told you about a teenager in Indiana who thought she was visiting a Planned Parenthood clinic, but was lured by one of these centres. The staff harassed and intimidated her at her home and school, even telling classmates to pressure her not to have an abortion. Thousands of you wrote to your representatives, urging action on an important bill to protect women. But the bill needs more support, and we now have direct quotes (see below) proving that these centres promote propaganda over medical fact.

Sincerely, Cecile Richards President, Planned Parenthood Federation of America

These centres use neutral-sounding names and ads, falsely promising full reproductive health services. And now, thanks to an investigation by Rep. Henry Waxman (D-CA), we know exactly what they're telling women, because female investigators called, saying they were pregnant, and recorded their conversations.What kinds of sage advice are the American's tax dollars funding? Here are some direct quotes:
The research shows: Psychological stress after an abortion is NO MORE COMMON than after childbirth.
But they said: Abortions cause "guilt ... sexual problems ... suicidal ideas ... drug use, eating disorders" and "a downward spiral."
The research shows: Abortion does NOT cause an increased risk of breast cancer.
But they said: "All abortion causes an increased risk of breast cancer in later years."
The research shows: Abortions in the first trimester, using the most common abortion procedure, create NO risks for future fertility.
But they said: It's "common" for abortion to lead to "many miscarriages" or "permanent damage," such that "you wouldn't be able to carry."
These examples don't represent just a few bad apples. The vast majority (87 percent) of centres called in this study provided false or misleading information about the health effects of abortion.

Take action on this issue at:
http://www.ppaction.org/campaign/crisis_clinics2

The Daily Squirt™ "Newspaper"

2006-07-19T16:06:00.000Z

I have recently been directed to a Yahoo group for readers of the Daily Squirt™ "Newspaper" The welcoming picture to the site, says it all.
*Daily Squirt™ readers have serious psychological problems*
This first picture thing of a woman, is designed, just to show their psychopathic hatred of women. No face showing of course, just the unimaginative big plastic tits and crotch shot, but it is done in a way that is very creepy, even the obligatory white panties ~whisper~ paedophile~ in an icky - breathy-sort of way.

Example of one of their jokes:
Q. What did one tampon say to the other?
A. Nothing. They were both stuck up bitches!

Example of my joke:
Q. What did the tampon say to the vagina?
A. Bet this beats a sweaty little cock any day!

These guys have some heavy duty, serious issues with mummy (this includes issues with anything representing the female) dearest, and yes i am a qualified therapist.

Want to have a look?

*Warning triggering content* http://groups.*****.com/adultconf?dest=%2Fgroup%2Fdaily_sport%2F
*Note--Subsitute ***** for yahoo*

(The title "Daily Squirt" and the work, jerk, squirt, fuck, lurk, idea came from Mary K, a friend of mine who passed on the link for the *newspaper* Cheers Hin x)

The Unravelling Of Two Balls Of String

2006-07-18T22:07:00.000Z

The Irish Evening Echo 7th July 06 announced that Dublin’s String fellows ceased business less than six months after opening.
Stringfellows lap dancing ~women dancing in mens' laps~ club had been targeted by protesters since it opened in February. The local residents and protest groups were unsuccessful in blocking the club via the courts, but by creating such fervour, delayed the venue’s opening. Representative for the club said that the protests had contributed to the clubs demise, creating reluctance for punters to visit the club.

Just shows what a bit of protest can do.

Through The Eyes Of An Abuser

2006-07-17T20:20:00.000Z

I make no apologies for the title, for that is what I see, when I read stories of men, up in arms, dedicating web-sites to their indignation of having their images of rape, necrophilia, bestiality and violence against women and children been challenged... Organised Abuse.

Abusers frequently see no harm in what they do because they are devoid of humanity, of empathy.

Part of some abusers thrill is knowing that they are damaging and inflicting unimaginable pain on their victims. This is often extended, to the victims loved ones, a particularly common event in paedophilia.

Abusers exploit, lie, insult, demean, ignore, manipulate, and control

Abusers abuse by dehumanization and objectification:

People have a need to believe in the empathic skills and basic good-heartedness of others. By dehumanizing and objectifying people - the abuser attacks the very foundations of human interaction. This is an aspect of abusers - they may be excellent imitations of fully formed adults but they are emotionally absent and immature.

Melon Farmers
This is a UK based pro-pornography/lad’s mags site expending a whole lot of energy in protecting their wank material. Not content with this, they are also attempting to push to pornifcate as yet unpornified cultures such as Malaysia and India.
Below is a quote referring to the recent legislation in Britain making it illegal to possess pornographic images of rape and necrophilia.

"As the Government are intending to criminalize people for possessing these
unproven `dangerous pictures`, I wonder upon what grounds they feel the need
to
go quite this far? Such law would necessarily fall foul of even the most
cursory
respect for human rights, and one feels that anyone convicted of
possessing
`dangerous pictures` would appeal to the ECHR and have their
conviction quashed
and this law nullified by far more reasoning minds than
appear to be running the
UK at present."

They give advice on encryption to make it safer to view porn that is illegal,
via directing viewers to “Heatseek” as below:

“Browsing for adult content just got easier thanks to the launch of Heatseek”
which is a web browser that claims to make searching for and viewing adult
content more efficient.
“Maybe a good idea to start using protection such as
this. No doubt, the encryption is useless to defend your extreme pictures from
the police, but it may keep the PC World repair snitches at bay

“While Heatseek’s stated mission is to “give consumers the ultimate software for security”
They refer to a case where a Man (Paedophile) had thousands of images depicting child pornography his computer, which had been deleted, but still remained on the hard drive. The man (Paedophile) was prosecuted because the jury acknowledged that even though the images had been deleted, he had been, at some point in possession of them. Melon Farmers think this is a gross miscarriage of judgement and he should not have been prosecuted.

Backlash
This is a website dedicated to fighting legislation against violent porn as they see it as a contravention of their Human Rights. Their home page states:

“See no evil. The government doesn't want you to view certain images. And will
send you to prison if you possess them. Even in the privacy of your own home”

It shows an image of a blindfolded woman with chains on her face.
Backlash quotes:

“... the Home Office is consulting now on proposals to criminalise the
possession of abhorrent material involving the abuse of humans, which it has
been illegal to distribute for many years. The wide range of responses that it
has received indicates that there will be huge difficulties in criminalising the
possession of such images. Quite a number of respondees considered the proposals
to be a major increase in powers and unnecessary when such imagery is legal in
many other parts of the world”

These sites are basically for abusers or wanna be abusers using their right of “free speech” to tell us exactly what they think is their right. Wank Bank material at any cost, cuz me and my cock rule the world baby.

Maybe we need to listen to Gandhi...
First they ignore you
then they ridicule you
then they fight you
then you win. - Mahatma Gandhi

* I have had a comment regarding my use of a suspect copyright image, therefore i have decided to say it myself, with the aid of Limbo the Giraffe*

Women As Dolls~Some Musings

2006-07-17T11:15:00.000Z

This post reflects some Sparkle* musing triggered by some pro-porn sites i have been directed to, which to tell you the truth, haven't shocked me as i'm beyond that, but served to reinforce the war, the terrorism, that is been waged on women. I'm going to spend a wee while longer looking at these sites, as they are so indicative of an abusive mentality, that- is- an *abusers mentality* that my head feels somewhat frozen. I worked for a few years as a counsellor for survivors of sexual abuse, so nothing is new here. The abusers-- the wanna be abusers are still there, in the wings waiting for an opportunity, or for the law to give them a green light. We can't let it happen. I was tempted to use a picture on this post of a line of dolls, but I thought no! We're not fucking dolls!This is what led to my musing on dolls. Pornography, Lad's mags whatever...emphasizes the theme of the woman in popular culture. In short, the woman is presented as a lifeless object a thing that cannot act in any way whatsoever. As you glance at the pictures you will note that women are portrayed in different ways, but thematically there is a clear foundation. Here, the real woman is trapped on a photograph and is given the accoutrements of a doll. They illustrate how real-life women are portrayed in pornography. Women are merely objects, brought to life when the watcher desires, for his pleasure. They offer the perfect, plastic doll like woman who feels no pain, unless that is what the watcher chooses to fantasise, but that is not real pain, for she is an object who knows no bounds. For she is not strictly human. These images illustrate the mediated relationship between real women and artificial dolls.I know that this is nothing new but i am a very *visual* person--a lot of my thoughts manifest in pictures, not words. Last night as i tryed to sleep, all i could see was dolls...plastic lifeless dolls.

Quest For The Perfect Woman?~Part II

2006-07-16T10:00:00.000Z

A series of studies since 2003 has found a surprisingly high suicide rate among women who have had cosmetic breast implants, sparking a controversy about the procedure.
A Finnish study showed that women who had cosmetic implants were more than three times more likely to commit suicide than the general population -- in line with findings from a similar study of Swedish women and one of American women conducted by the National Cancer Institute.
All three studies also found that women with implants had overall death rates the same or better than the general populations, suggesting that the implanted devices were not causing disease during the time period studied, as once feared.
But the studies all noted the suicide rate as significantly -- and at this point inexplicably -- higher than expected.
The question of why women with implants are so much more likely to commit suicide has become a controversial one
The Finnish study reported on 2,166 women, some of whom had the implants as long as 30 years ago. It was conducted by the private International Epidemiology Institute of Rockville, Md., and funded by Dow Corning Co., a former manufacturer of silicone breast implants. Dow Corning also funded the larger Swedish study, which examined 3,521 women with implants and also found a suicide rate about three times above normal.

"The ironic thing is that nobody was looking for this suicide information," said Joseph McLaughlin, lead investigator on the Finnish study, "There have been lots of studies of women with breast implants, and the only consistent finding that's problematic is the suicide excess."
Some researchers contend the high suicide rate is a result of the psychological makeup of the women choosing implants -- that they are, as a group, women with problems different from the general population.

Numerous studies have found that women who receive all kinds of cosmetic surgery are wealthier and healthier than the norm.
Diana Zuckerman, president of the National Centre for Policy Research for Women & Families and a long-time critic of cosmetic breast implants, said that while it remains unclear why the suicide rates are high, it is significant that they are.
"Tripling the risk of suicide is a shocking finding -- growing evidence that the 'cure' might be worse than the problem it is supposed to solve," she said. "We can't just go along with the manufacturer's assumptions that implants are great for women's mental health."
In an article accompanying the Finnish study, University of Pennsylvania professor David Sarwer argued that plastic surgeons should make greater efforts to understand the psychological and emotional state of women seeking implants. He wrote that if a woman shows signs of instability or a history of psychiatric care, mental health professionals should be contacted before any implants are approved.
Sarwer said that 7 to 15 percent of women having plastic surgery have dysmorphic disorder, a preoccupation with a slight or imagined defect in appearance. He said that these women in particular do not respond well to cosmetic surgery.

The scientists suggested that cosmetic surgeons should evaluate women who want breast enlargement for any signs of psychological problems.
"If women have a psychological problem and they are given breast implants they will still have that problem," said Koot, who reported the finding in the British Medical Journal.

The numerous data I have found researching breast implants and suicide go back as far as 2003. I have been unable to find a study suggesting that the pressure women are under to conform to an unnatural male image set by men and media are in anyway behind the breast enlargement and suicide phenomena. Concentrating on greater disposable income, programmes such as "Nip & Tuck or domains such as women’s magazines, in which psychological experts provide ‘facts’ about women’s ‘body image problems’, and offer advice and psychological treatments. Nothing to do with every way you look in the media there's a big pair of plastic tits ready to poke ya eyes out! Demanded of course by men for their 24hr reality Planet Porn Show. They also talk of women's "psychological problems" and "dysmorphic disorder" and waffle on about Plastic Surgeons assessing women’s mental health prior to surgery. Since when was a surgeon a psychiatrist or psychologist? and since when were women the ones with the *real* (as in the origional) "psychological problems"?

Quest For The Perfect Woman?~Part I

2006-07-15T15:12:00.000Z

Breast implants, like a lot of other things in this world, have become normalised, accepted and a reasonable option for many women, for what ever their reasons. I spent six years working as a Senior Nurse on a regional Burns and Plastic surgery unit up until the late nineties. The last couple of years of that stint as part time, while I juggled sporadic sessional work to try and move into the community based mental health field as a counsellor and care coordinator. I’m actually in the process of changing direction again, which I’ve commented on in my profile, but that’s another story! I reinvent my self every five years or so, you see, with the only thing remaining consistent being my radical feminism.
So anyway, I spent six years working on a high tech’ high dependency unit, that also performed it’s fair share of other more aesthetic work such as breast augmentation, tummy tucks and so on. The vast majority of our breast remit work was breast augment’ for psychological reasons on women who felt their lack of breast tissues was causing them psychological distress. Other breast surgery included breast reduction, reconstruction after mastectomy, severe asymmetry and the odd mastopexy where the breast is “uplifted” requiring realignment of nipple and general tightening up of slack tissue. I would include mastopexy as a second cousin of breast enlargement as it's performed on healthy breasts for cosmetic reasons. ** Breast reduction is also a surgical proceedure on healthy breasts, because for some women, large breasts can cause back and shoulder troubles, but for most females it was unwanted, cruel and objectifying comments from males. You know * "Big tits are MY property, therefore I have a right to comment" sorta guys. Both augmentation and reduction procedures demonstrate how some women feel the need to mutilate and adapt their breasts to either get male approval (breast enlargement) or become "invisible" (breast reduction)
At the time it struck me, that a disproportionately high percentage of women admitted for breast augs’ were in my eyes, either border line anorexic or had some severe body image issues. There was absolutely no psychological screening, even though we had a Psychologist attached to our unit, due of the nature of the departments work, such as severe burns, cancer and reconstructive surgery following trauma.
Sadly it doesn’t take rocket science to work out why so many women and girls are obsessed to the level of resorting to painful, dangerous and
unnecessary surgery in the quest for the males interpretation of the *perfect woman* How is it, men not only get to interperate our sexuality in pornography, but also get to define what size and shape our tits are in the fuckability cattle market?
I was talking to a friend this morning, and she voiced concern that her 16 year old daughter’s magazines have adverts for breast enlargement surgery, which she guesses is aimed at the late teens.
Oh come on!!!
She can’t remember the magazines in question, but she’s going to find them out for me.
Within a couple of posts I’m going to look at this increase in breast surgery, and the worrying research that shows that women need to be screened for subtle mental health problems, as a link with increased suicide has been identified.

* big tits, little tits, any tits...tits
** Women would frequently use the physical health ie back and shoulder problems as the factors for being accepted for reduction surgery, but disclose in private to nursing staff, that it was actually unwanted male attention that was the real problem.

Up-Date ~Girrlz~Sexxxy Sid's New 36DD's!!

2006-07-13T22:19:00.000Z

Howz about this girrlz! Sexxxy Sid's got 'em out for the wimmin, in this sexxxy new number, designed by our very own Phemi.
"Forget those orange peel thingies, now i feel like a reaal man" He squeaked excitedly for Nuts Magazine for squirrels.

*And we just love 'em too, don't we girrlz "Wink"*

Ball-ssiere For Sid's Nuts

2006-07-13T20:43:00.000Z

As suggested by Phemisaurus Terribilis, Sid and I decided he should buy into the Beauty-Myth and we cobbled up a ball-ssiere. Organic and bio-degradable of course.

The Meaning Of Nuts By Sid

2006-07-13T19:10:00.000Z

Nuts isn't a Lad's Mag!... they're these LOOK!

Hoy! Sid!... you need a Wonder Bra for 'em mate!

Bollox!

Mi.sog.y.ny, Religion And The Witch Hunts~Part VII

2006-07-12T17:27:00.000Z

Thou Shalt Not Suffer a Woman to Live:The Reasons Behind the Hiding of Women's Sexuality.

Other common depravities of witches included adultery, bestiality (with the Devil in the form of a cat or goat), cunnilingus, anilingus, and fellatio. Fellatio was considered particularly dangerous and was seen as a form of seminal vampirism performed by post-menopausal women:
The old witch was in a sense a dry woman who, instead of feeding others well, diverted nourishment to her own selfish ends. Older widows were believed to have the power to ruin young men sexually, and youths were warned against marrying such women because they were sexually ravenous, and would suck out their seed, weakening them with their insatiable hunger for seminal fluid and contaminating them with their own impurities

Mi.sog.y.ny, Religion And The Witch Hunts~Part VI

2006-07-12T17:16:00.000Z

Thou Shalt Not Suffer a Woman to Live:The Reasons Behind the Hiding of Women's Sexuality.

The only way women could combat their evil sexuality was through virginity or abstinence. Virginity became the ideal, and the only way a woman could free herself from sexual temptation and evil was by renouncing her sexuality.
This new development was a means through which men exerted control over female behaviour and in the process played down their own sense of sexual inferiority. They failed to satisfy the carnal woman. The virgin saved them from this humiliation. All good women must emulate the virgin as far as their circumstances permitted. Even married women should avoid sex except for procreation. Women who did not conform exhibited their sensuality, their devotion to evil .
Because of dual beliefs of women as whores/virgins, sexual impropriety was one of the most serious accusations that could be made against a woman in a court of law.

Where's Barbie?

2006-07-11T10:16:00.000Z

Little Big Bonce: Pssst Sista Devine, Where's Barbie?

Sista Devine: Oh! my child, she's auditioning for Big Brother. The next time we'll see her, she'll be in Nuts! May the Lord have mercy...

Little Big Bonce: Can i audition for Big Brother?

Sista Devine: Certainly not! have you seen the size of your head?... stupid child!

Full Moon Tonight

2006-07-10T23:32:00.000Z

The moon is seen as a female symbol, and was worshipped in ancient times as a powerful force. The sacredness of the moon has been connected with the basic cyclic rhythms of life. The changing phases of the moon are linked to the death and rebirth seen in crops and the seasons, and also to the female monthly cycle that controls human fertility.

Check my side bar for the current Moon phase.

Mi.sog.y.ny, Religion And The Witch Hunts~Part V

2006-07-10T17:50:00.000Z

Thou Shalt Not Suffer a Woman to Live:The Reasons Behind the Hiding of Women's Sexuality.

The period between the twelfth and eighteenth centuries was one in which women must have cursed their bad luck of having been born female. Women feared their own sex and their own sexuality, not to mention one another. The early modern period was a time in which being a woman could be a crime in and of itself a crime often punishable by death. The anti-female Malleus Maleficarum, or the Hammer of Witches, [which i know I've mentioned several times, including it's stark resemblance to the message in pornography] became one of the first international bestsellers, going through thirty-five editions in four different languages between 1486 and 1669. The Malleus Maleficarum advocated death to all witches, with the majority of witches being the majority of women.

Menstruation as purging of evil humors.

In early European times, most doctors regarded menstruation as beneficial to women, as providing a monthly purging of those evil humors which might otherwise induce doubly reprehensible behavior on the part of the weaker, less rational sex. The relationship between menstruation and the production of the ovum remained undiscovered until the mid-nineteenth century. Before then menstruation was viewed as akin to bloodletting, the official medical remedy for most bodily disorders. Conversely, the ending of the menstrual cycle was viewed as negative, as a process whereby evil 'humors' remained present in the body, capable of adding to that complex of female wickedness which could turn aging women into witches. According to one seventeenth-century French physician: "When seed and menstrual blood are retained in women besides [beyond] the intent of nature, they putrefie and are corrupted, and attain a malignant and venomous quality"

Some people may think that my interest in the Witchcraze, bears little relevance to our present day situation as feminists demanding to be heard and challenging men to examine their beliefs about women. It may be 200 and 0dd years since the last Witch was condemed in the Uk, and thankfully we have moved on, mostly due to science, medicine and so forth. But, who is to say that the basic, DNA en-coded, covert and inherited beliefs surrounding the female, still don't lurk in the male psyche on some deep and dark level?

For all of our enlightenment, why is duality still alive and kicking? and how come men are still getting to define OUR sexuality?

Timmy (the Tiger) 15 Years Old Today

2006-07-09T22:35:00.000Z

Thought i'd post a picture of one of the finer things in life. My beautiful little cat Timmy (the Tiger) basking in the sunshine, on his birthday. Happy Birthday Tim xxx

Misandry~Hatred Of Men

2006-07-09T19:51:00.000Z

I'm still reeling from the reports and pictures of the rapes by U.S. Marines in Iraq and I give no apologies for being disgusted by men and their inhumanity. For all the perpetrators, supporters and by-standers of the global and systematic dehumanisation of women...ask yourself, why do you hate us so much?

Reasons To Hate Men~Mi.sog.y.ny And The Military ( Link)

2006-07-09T10:29:00.000Z

*Warning triggering story*

Heart has written some splendid posts across on Women’s Space. She has covered the rape and murder of 15 year old Abir Qasim Hamza, of Iraq, by U.S. military. According to the Washington Post the soldiers had been sexually harrrassing her as she passed through a manned checkpoint. Her family were afraid for her, and she had even stayed at a family friend’s home for a night.
The child had refused their sexual advances, and how dare she! "That little bitch knew what she was doing as she wiggled her cute little ass past the drooling men with cocks for brains" "W W What! she dosen't want us! well we're gonna have her, because we're men and we CAN"
(Words mine)
So to cut a long and horrific story short, they gang raped and murdered her. Not content with the dehumanizing and torturing of a child, they set fire to her body and murdered the rest of her family.

A neighbour of the Hanza family states:

"I knew she had been raped since she had been turned on her face and the lower
part of her body was raised while her hands and feet had been tied"

*Remember, these are soldiers, the supposed keepers of integrity and courage, defenders of our rights and values*

Secondly Heart covers a story, of how she has come across information and photos about, what looks to be of U.S. soldiers raping Iraqi women. These found their way to a porn site named Iraqabaes, where they were described as genuine photos of women being raped. The Porn site has since been taken down. Pro war web sites have clamed that the photos are staged because they appear on a porn site!

*Remember these are soldiers, the supposed keepers of integrity and courage, defenders of our rights and values*

Heart sums up Porn=not real

This is one of the many horrors of our porn culture: all that has to be done in
order to make a rape not "real" not "actual" is to turn it into porn. If it is
pornography, then it must be harmless "fantasy"

Once again i've come to the conclusion that men hate us, they look at us and see *SEX* not human beings, with even so much as a heart beat. How can people not see this war on women? I’m a firm believer in ‘what goes around, comes around,’ and the perpetrators and supporters of this derranged misogyny are buiding up one hell of a Karmic debt.

(edit) I have found out today that Abir Hamzah was born August 19, 1991, meaning she had not yet turned 15. The object of the U.S soldier's sexual depravity was 14 years old.

See side bar for updates of this story

Mi.sog.y.ny, Religion And The Witch Hunts~Part IV

2006-07-08T20:07:00.000Z

Saints, Virgins Or Whores

In 1485, according to Krämer and Sprenger, the Inquisition of Como burnt 41 witches for intercourse with *incubi. They had had a wet dream and were incinerated for it! Evidently an exception was the Catholic St Theresa whose nocturnal visitor was a golden angel with a great golden spear which penetrated her entrails and “with a piercing sweetness” “caused her to utter several moans”. For this she was canonized. Poor witches dreamt of the Devil and were burnt at the stake. Even if they had really dreamt of **Christ, they would have had to confess that it was the Devil if they wanted their torturers to cease. Today the incubus is not called the Devil but an alien.

* Male aspect of the "Devil*
** Bloke on the cross.

Mi.sog.y.ny, Religion And The Witch Hunts~A Short Ditty

2006-07-08T16:55:00.000Z

A Short Ditty, as opposed to Religion And The Witch HuntsPart IV

And proverbs xi, as it were describing a woman, says: As a jewel of gold in a swine's snout, so is a fair woman which is without discretion. (written in the Malleus Maleficarum)

We now have a modern day Malleus, ran by the likes of Heffner, Flint, other Pornographers and the men who wank to them.

*See warning picture above* Misogyny twists balls.

Mi.sog.y.ny, Religion And The Witch Hunts~Part III

2006-07-08T16:11:00.000Z

The witch-hunts can in fact be viewed as a case of genderized mass murder. The overall evidence makes plain that the growth -- the panic -- in the witch craze was inseparable from the stigmatization of women. ... Historically, the unreserved belief in female power and female evil is evidenced in the tight, recurrent, by-now nearly instinctive association of women and witchcraft. Though there were male witches, when the witch craze accelerated and became a mass phenomenon after 1500 its main targets, its main victims, were female witches. Indeed, one strongly suspects that the development of witch-hunting into a mass hysteria only became possible when directed primarily at women.
In The Holocaust in Historical Context, Vol. I, p. 433 [n. 1], 436.) Katz draws out the depths of this misogyny through a comparison with anti-Semitism:

"The medieval conception of women shares much with the corresponding medieval
conception of Jews. In both cases, a perennial attribution of secret, bountiful,
malicious "power," is made. Women are anathematized and cast as witches because
of the enduring grotesque fears they generate in respect of their putative
abilities to control men and thereby coerce, for their own ends, male-dominated
Christian society. Whatever the social and psychological determinants operative
in this abiding obsession, there is no denying the consequential reality of such
anxiety in medieval Christendom. Linked to theological traditions of Eve and
Lilith, women are perceived as embodiments of inexhaustible negativity. Though
not quite quasi-literal incarnations of the Devil as were Jews, women are,
rather, their ontological "first cousins" who, like the Jews, emerge from the
"left" or sinister side of being." (Katz, The Holocaust in Historical Context,
Vol. I, p. 435.)

Some historians even go on to say that the torture, was sexualized sadism, and in some respects the point of the trials, and not merely a feature of them!!

Does all of this sound familiar?

Mi.sog.y.ny, Religion And The Witch Hunts~Part II

2006-07-07T15:02:00.000Z

The Witch Hunts~
The classic evocation of the deranged misogyny 0f the Witch hunts is the Malleus Maleficarum (The Hammer of Witches) became the guidebook for prosecuting witches in Europe in the sixteenth and seventeenth centuries. It too emphasized the sexual nature of witchcraft. This work by Pope Innocent VIII, published by Catholic inquisition authorities told stories of men losing their genitalia and consulting with female witches for treatment. It also explained why women were more likely to become witches.

"Because the female sex is more concerned with things of the
flesh than men; because being formed from a man's rib, they are only 'imperfect
animals' and 'crooked' whereas man belongs to a privileged sex from whose midst
Christ emerged."12
"All wickedness," write the authors, "is but little to
the wickedness of a woman. ... What else is woman but a foe to friendship, an
inescapable punishment, a necessary evil, a natural temptation, a desirable
calamity, domestic danger, a delectable detriment, an evil nature, painted with
fair colours. ... Women are by nature instruments of Satan -- they are by nature
carnal, a structural defect rooted in the original creation." (Quoted in Katz,
The Holocaust in Historical Context, Vol. I, pp. 438-39.)

The Malleus Maleficarum ("The Hammer of Witches" or the "Hexenhammer") is considered by many to be the classic Roman Catholic text on witchcraft, First published in 1487, the book is notorious for its use in the witch-hunt craze of the fifteenth to seventeenth centuries.

I Ask you "Have the Witch Hunts really ended?"

Mi.sog.y.ny And Religion

2006-07-07T14:51:00.000Z

Mi.sog.y.ny And Religion, Some Origins~Part I

2006-07-07T10:05:00.000Z

mi·sog·y·ny (mi-soj'ə-nē) n.
Hatred of women: “Every organized patriarchal religion works overtime to contribute its own brand of misogyny” (Robin Morgan).
I have noticed lately that while feminists are frequently hurled the imaginary insult of ‘man hater’ the polarity of ‘woman hater’ seems somehow to loose its power. A lot of women find the idea of being called a ’man hater’ something to be avoided at all costs, while women hatred remains unchecked, and is actively encouraged to flourish.
The subject of misogyny and the analysis of the reasons for the widespread and nurtured/encouraged woman hatred that infects this lonely planet is a huge and complex subject. That’s why misogyny and the patriarchal religions seem a good place as any to start. The subject of misogyny and the Church is huge and I will not even attempt to scratch the surface, merely give some insights of some origins.

Addiction Words

The words Spirit, soul, heaven, sin, god, eternal life, baptism, sacred, and so the list goes on is all a bit like the ubiquitous "Coca Cola" (or "Coke") .. Trademarked by "Vaticorp"…How many times do you buy a bottle of "Cola"… and, no matter what the brand, you call it "Coke" ...The Marketing departing department did a good job of selling the sizzle through appealing to all of the senses.No matter what roots of the Spiritual English Words that you use lie deeper than the Catholic definition, the "sizzle" of Rome's marketing department obscures them."Coca Cola" got its name because it was originally formulated from extracts of the Cola Nut and Cocaine. But, over the years, we have forgotten about the Cocaine and Amatil have taken it out of their drink. Yet, we all know the nature of addictive memory.
Consumer Mind Control and Hard Sell
So it was with the Canon of the Roman Catholic Church, Is it any wonder with the corrupted translation of the Bible, mostly by celibate women hating priests, time and time again down through history, that we have been left with a ‘manual’ of pure unadulterated misogynous shit. Which unfortunately governs the life of the vast majority of the spiritual teachings of the planet? Don’t forget I’m talking ALL the patriarchal religions here

Born Of Original Sin

Many of us were baptised because we are taught that children are born of Original Sin.But - what if this is merely a Dogma of Manipulation and Control based on mistranslation of Assyrian practice of 2500 years BCE - where "sin" was merely the word of the time which translates now into the English words "female or feminine".Of course you would be born of sin. There aren't too many alive now who were not born of female. This is the Original Birth of the Physical Body.And what happens immediately after birth is that all of the "stains" the coatings and the other original birth products from the female which come out on the body of the new born are washed away.But, no. This wasn't mystical enough - and couldn't be used for power, control and manipulation. The Infant had to be Baptised by a Priest (instead of washed by a midwife) to erase Original Sin from which it was born when it separated from its mother who was made to feel evil because she bore a "child from hell".

Dead Heroines

Transcendence and the transpersonal goes against any Patriarchal religious memories that may be in the body and the implications of heresy and blasphemy can lead to psychosis when confronted ...
This will bring up "Unholy" memories especially if they involve the female body because Christianity is a Patriarchal religion whose origins strip the female of any integrity (at least until after a life of martyrdom ending in death)

Keeping female legs together

How does a Female get to be a Saint .. VaticorpI read the stories of the Female Saints and yes, it is a Holy Estate, achieved after a lifetime of martyrdom, celibacy and servitude to "The Father".What sort of life is it for a female to live .. in servitude to a father who may or may not recognise them after they are dead ....What role model does that portray for a female child who has a difficult relationship with her biological father or men in general.for the human body only recognises and reacts to the "key word" father ... and doesn't differentiate rank or station ...This is the Catholic Female Peer Role Model ..
If you get to become a nun ...and if you don't, you have to keep your legs together until you marry and then have as many children as possible

Create Your Own Title?~What Does This Picture Say To You?

2006-07-03T22:06:00.000Z

And this my friends, is the space i need to re-focus and 're-group' (hate military analogies) my thoughts. I will turn my attention for a short while, to things of a more civilised nature- that is-does not contain misogyny , racism or any of the 'othering' that males consider just 'a bit of fun'

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For All Those Who Think Lad's Mags Are Just Harmless Fun

2006-07-02T11:31:00.000Z

I'm dedicating this picture, to all of the Ostriches who think that lad's mags are just a bit of harmless fun. I'm going to leave this topic for a while, and concentrate on things that don't leave such a foul taste in my mouth.

More On Barely Bipedal~All 1st Sparkle*mendment Rights Apply~Free Speech

2006-07-02T08:56:00.000Z

There are obviously lots of undressed women in Maxim, all up for it, especially the ladies in the adverts at the back for sex chatlines and hardcore porn DVDs. Women are, of course, a commodity in lads' mags and Maxim is unusually candid about this - one monthly feature, headlined "Fresh off the boat", offers readers the chance of a date with an immigrant, or the latest "hot foreign girl looking for love as a way to avoid deportation!" (Note, an exclamation mark denotes humour.)

Maybe i've got a different sense of humour than the readers of Maxim? or ,maybe i don't think women (and men) fleeing, oppression and torture fair game for piss taking. I spent most of last year working on a project for refugees and asylum seekers, and no, there wasn't anyone splitting their sides with laughter, as they told their tale of escape. Or peals of glee as they faced deportation, somtimes to face rape, torture or even death, but always to some form of persecution.

Yeah Maxim, really fucking funny, Har-de-har Har Har!

My mate Dave from Newcastle sent this photo' in, he spotted it, yes you've guessed it, lurking around the lad's mags stand.

More On Barely Bipedal ~This Picture Of A Lad's Mags Reader Is Protected By the 1st Sparkle*mendment~

2006-07-01T09:27:00.000Z

Alok Jna says "Sex" sells because it's "what men want". Women dress in short skirts because it's "what men want". Women go to lap-dancing clubs because "it is a place men like to go". In raunch culture, liberation and empowerment for women involves "behaving like a man".
But who decided that these are the only types of sexuality that men are interested in? Who decided that behaving like a man involves going to lap-dancing clubs or salivating over porn stars? Who decided that men are all beholden to the fantasy world of boobs and beer with an unstoppable desire for sexual prowess?
The current sexual climate caricatures men's sexuality and damages men. The blame for this lies in many places but nowhere is the roots of this problem clearer than in the pernicious world of lad culture."

I would also go on to say Alok; that it damages women in such a way, that they often loose sight of that vital essence...their sense of self.

And before anyone starts jumping up and down, attacking the way i have pictoraly portrayed lad's mags readers in these posts. This also happens to be the way i feel, everytime i have to walk past a lad's mags stand.

Remember lads...
'it's just a bit of fun''
"its empowering"
"lighten up!"
"GET OVER IT!"

Please respect the 1st Sparkle*mendment.

Are Men Who Read Lad's Mags Barely Bipedal? Shock Report!!

2006-06-30T13:19:00.000Z

This picture was sent in by Dave from Newcastle, he spyed it lurking around a lad's mag stand in a local newsagents. Could this be one of the first offical sightings? Remember folks you saw it first at Sparkle*Matrix.

Tom Leonard, Telegraph Media Editor says..

"The top shelf is too good for 'em. Seriously. Lads' mags are not as offensive and corrupting as conventional pornography magazines - they are worse.

'The wit of early lads' mags has been replaced by shock value'
Unremittingly moronic, by presuming that young men are barely bipedal let alone bilingual, they manage - and this is quite a feat - to degrade their readers almost as much as the women strutting their stuff on the pages."

Secondly we have comment made by the Times newspaper regarding the Sun

The Sun, which is owned by News Corporation, parent company of The Sunday Times, responded with an editorial which stated: “Our campaign against anti-page three Nazi Clare Short MP continues: we’re going to take her all the way to the European Court of Human Rights! The Sun’s European legal expert, Helga, 22, from Hartlepool, says: ‘Clare Short’s nasty comments about page three girls are totally discriminatory as well as in clear breach of article 10 of the European convention on human doo-dah or whatever’

Errrr "breach of article 10 of the European convention on human doo-dah or whatever" said by the Sun's European legal expert , Helga, 22 from Hartlepool.
Surprised they didn't say "Hot 'nd Horny Helga 22 from Harlepool" and then go on to tell us about her 36 double DDers and how she really, really wants a 3som with her boyfriend, coz she likes the girleys as much as the boys. PHWORRRR

On much more of a damming and sinister note M.P. Claire Curtis-Thomas states.

"Zoo's Dictionary of Sex goes beyond anything we consider normal. You wouldn't think of defecating on a human being. Yet this is the type of 'education' made available in this literature.
Recently the Sport produced an article about a girl murdered by a necrophiliac. It wasn't put there with a view to getting people to feel deeply concerned that somebody's life ended tragically. It was about sexual titillation, surrounded by adverts for hardcore porn.
Even an appalling tragedy like that which has sexual overtones is used to encourage depraved acts."

Harmless fun anyone?

Lad's Mags A Bad Influence On Chirdren And teenagers? Question Been Posed In The Media

2006-06-30T10:09:00.000Z

Actually, i don't think the're just a bad "influence" on children and teenagers. I also firmly BELIEVE that they have a negative and bad "influence" on adult men and women. What fucking purpose do they serve? except to give another platform in which to grind the female into a patriarchal beefburger.

If your circularity system can handle a sudden bout of hypertension, it might be worth keeping tabs.

I will update this as i find the "best" comments within the media.

(Edit) Changed my mind, because... i can! I have decided not to include ANY pro lad's mags comments, as i feel i've already given enough blog space to the pornographers. (1st Sparkle*mendment)

Ode To A Troll

2006-06-28T17:40:00.000Z

I'm a troll and I'm okay
I troll all night and I troll all day
I dress in women's clothing, and hang around on blogs.

A Mouse Story

2006-06-27T12:03:00.000Z

This picture was to go with the post below, but due to a touch of bloganoma, it won't edit....i will try later.

(Edit) "Danger Mouse" wants to stay here. She likes having her own post.

A Mouse Story

2006-06-27T11:40:00.000Z

.... A prologue and a metaphor
I shall tell you the story of a small brown mouse. The mouse lived, as all mice have lived generation upon generation, small and brown.
At the time of our story, the small brown mouse was beginning to feel old and very tired. She was worn and fragile before her time because of all the children she had raised. She had so many children that she could not remember all their names but they remembered her. They turned to her for help and aid whenever they felt the need. She was always there for her demanding children.
Once again, her time was drawing near. The baby mouse that grew within her was making itself felt. She instinctively knew that this would be her last child and that only one baby grew inside her. Despite her obvious tiredness, her older children still made demands on her. They took from her the last of her reserves of strength and almost all her life force was gone. Still, she ran after her children, helping as she could, so wrapped up in their demands that she neglected her own self.
The baby mouse inside could not survive such stress. It could not survive without mother’s attention and love. So quietly the baby mouse curled up and his spirit left his body. The mother mouse felt this, but it was too late for her to do anything.
Realising what she had done, she moved into a deep, deep sleep. She was going to allow herself to die from the body and leave the demanding children to learn their own lessons.
In her sleep she began to feel a presence. It was the Great Spirit of the Mouse Nation. Kindly did the Light look on the small brown mouse and gave her a dream. The dream was an alternative ending to the story of the baby mouse.
In her dream state, the mother mouse was firm and strong with all her children and although kind and helpful, she made the children work for themselves. She taught them all they needed to know, then moved away from them and allowed them to make the mistakes that would see them grow and mature into wise mice.
The mother mouse talked to the Great Spirit and took time to look after herself and to care and nurture the baby mouse growing within her. She spoke soft words of strength to the mouse and allowed herself to receive the blessing of Great Spirit. She was happy and she was content.
As the baby mouse grew, mother mouse felt that somehow this, the last of her children would be special, but how she did not know.
The time of birth arrived and she was ready. She was heavy and in pain but that did not matter. The baby mouse was strong within her and beginning to make its way into the world. T he earthly world slipped from mother mouse as she lay in the deep sleep. But slowly she moved back to a conscious state and realised that she had been blessed by the Spirit of the Mouse Nation, for beside her lay a beautiful white baby mouse.
Great Spirit had felt the regret and sorrow in her heart and had given the old mouse her wish to have the last of her children. Great Spirit had done even more. This was the first white mouse of all.
The old mouse cried tears of joy. She knew from deep within, the future of the baby mouse, for this was also a gift from Great Spirit. She was old and would not see in reality the future, but already she knew it.
She saw her baby white mouse, the first white mouse, move beyond the limits of the brown mouse. It was the first mouse to dare to be different and because of its difference, courage and knowing, that it was not confined to the limitation of all the others.
So began the change of the Mouse Nation, a change that came about because an ordinary mouse changed her path and allowed her heart of speak with Great Spirit, allowed herself the nurturing she needed and allowed Great Spirit to come to her.
Each time you see a white mouse, remember the little brown mouse, her heart and her allowing. Allow yourself the space and the nurturing to grow to your own full potential. Be tied to no limitations.

Another Pyro' Brighton 13th May (My Birthday)

2006-06-26T23:47:00.000Z

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Pyrotechnics At Brighton May 13th 2006

2006-06-25T19:07:00.000Z

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Donkey Punch

2006-06-25T15:19:00.000Z

This makes me so incredibly angry, but here goes...
Donkey punch is a slang term for a sex move performed during doggi style vaginal or anal sex. The move involves the penetrating partner punching the penetrated partner in the back of the head or neck. The act is mostly encountered as a joke or urban legend as is often thought of as fictitious, but in recent years it has appeared occasionally in pornography. The first commercial recording of it may be in the 2004 JM Productions film Guttermouths 30, in which Alex Sanders punches Gia Paloma. Later it was featured extensively in the 2005 JM Productions film Donkey Punch.
The practice of hitting one's partner for sexual enjoyment is familiar (see sadism and masochism), but in the various joke-descriptions of the donkey punch more exotic rationales are often given for it. For example, sometimes it is said to cause the muscles around the vagina or anus to contract around the penis, giving enhanced pleasure to the active partner. In one exaggerated telling[1] this phenomenon is of such great force as to result in the inversion of the rectum (which may then be described as a "pink sock"). In reality, punching someone in the back of the head (rabbit punching) can damage the brain stem, causing death or permanent injury. It is illegal in professional boxing for this reason. The donkey punch may also be prosecutable as assault or sexual assault, in some jurisdictions even if consent is given.
Get it?
Just to make matters worse(if that's possible) Cafe express are selling t-shirts promoting this violence against women. Here's the quote from the site...

"Can't deny that a Donkey Punch is the greatest thing invented. Women love it whether they want to admit it or not. Biatch."

And if you feel really brave here's the link.

http://www.cafepress.com/donkeypu.19288938

Love Your Body You Goddess

2006-06-24T18:41:00.000Z

Woman In Body Bag a.k.a. Burqas

2006-06-21T15:08:00.000Z

Now i don't want to upset any religious groups, about what they choose to wear. I know some women who wear Burqas, claim to do so as some sort of symbol and dedication to their faith. I'm not going to ruffle any feathers here, because this post isn't about women who CHOOSE to wear the veil.

The other day while watching some news programme, it included footage of a country where the female wears the Burqas. Picture this....large group of men and boys dancing around smiling, wearing brightly coloured t-shirts, and just generally whooping it up about something or other. Then cue, the most surreal image scuttled into view. A woman (i guess) completely covered in this, this body bag thing, scurried and weaved along the edges of the group. It reminded me of a tragic "Cousin It" even the gap for her eyes was covered by gauze. I nearly cried.

Now this leads me onto the next bit. I'm sick of hearing this used as an argument against Radical Feminists, as in "Ahhhh but you don't have to wear Burqas do you, things could be a lot worse, you know"

Could they? So what? Whoopfuckingdooo we don't have to wear Burqas, what exactly does this mean? If women (radical feminists-not the fun kind) didn't fight, we would be wearing burqas or whatever else. Or probably more like a Bunnygirl (hack pppt) outfit as outlined in a previous post.

Burqas are merely a symbol of female oppression, just the same as pornography, prostitution and all the other pernicious cancers that the patriachy spew onto us.

Wakey wakey!!!! so what, we don't wear body bags...yet!

My Own Internal Patriachy And The Hairy Hand

2006-06-20T11:04:00.000Z

When i got up this morning and checked my Matrix of the Sparkle* my first reaction, was that my previous post had sounded a tad AngRy and i even toyed, (albeit briefy) with taking it down. Had i been too brutal, lumping ALL men together? No? Yes? (Ahh you see, men take that as a resounding YES, their ears don't hear NO)... Tough shit! the men out there, who know that they do not abuse women/kids and who actually respect the female, know who they are. It's interesting, isn't it, here's lil ol' me daring to put my beleifs, out on to the WWW, and i get a little hesitant when i speak my truth. The Patriachy in all it's cockworshiping putrid glory reaching out invisible and stealth like to put its hairy hand on my GOB! No way! Hey this feels good!

Suck your own cock!

Shut The Fuck Up Bitch ( Courtesy of Pornography)

2006-06-20T00:18:00.000Z

I want to repost this post, and add another image*, not because i think it's anything frigging great (as outlined below) but i sometimes (often) feel like a woman with no fucking voice! That image above sums it up, because most often, i feel i'm living out that very same pornography.
I don’t claim to be, educated, well-spoken or well-versed in feminist theory. I do, however, claim to be a woman, and a wise woman at that; who has a right to an opinion. Lately I have been somewhat discouraged by the division that is evident in so many of the feminist circles. We waste so much energy discussing, and quite frankly "who is the most academic". Personally, I am sick of discussing and academia has it's place. And, I am also pretty sick of pretentiousness and division. I wish we would stop fighting among ourselves. Men love a "Cat fight"...lets stop fighting petty battles and concentrate our energies in where they really belong. FIGHTING THE PATRIACHY

(Edit): Unsure whether to use this picture, due to the possibility that my motives may be misunderstood. Lets be very clear here...i decided to keep this picture up as it highlights just- oh- so -clearly how women DON'T have a voice. Courtesy of Pornography of course.

And for good measure. i would like to remind everyone of the (funny when you try to think of a goddam awful word for a man, it always gravitates back to female) Inadequate limp cocked (yip hit 'em where it huurts gal) stinking/festering little xx's who masturbate over fucking children yup... Paedofiles and Rapists, who get off on ABUSE, but hide behind their stupid fucking precious 1st a fuckamendmend. Created by men to abuse women Ahmen Ahfuckingmen! Well anywayz you may say 'ere's me next pic like :-)

*The supporting picture is the Pornographers, standing on a "woman"

**disclamer** this supporting pic might make you very angry, unless of course you are a rapist/paedofile

Sparkle* The Card Maker

2006-06-19T17:39:00.000Z

Been feeling very creative today. I called into my local charity shop and bought a pile of Children's books for a quid! then i found some really kitch Snow white wrapping paper Mmmm i think it's Snow white? going to have to check up on that one. Anyway all for my card making! Got a great book about Lavender the Fairy, (which is now decimated) and transformed into a birthday card for my friend next month. Shit it's great! I've also done a little bit more on our "baby's" card who is one in August. Oh yes and i've just ordered a bag of multi coloured feathers off ebay. Ooo i LOVE feathers for embelishments. I seem to be getting inspiration from everywhere, keep getting images of things in my head of what i would like to make. Oh well suppose dat is good ya?

Now for something completely unrelated, i found a picture proclaiming to love Trolls (as above) now everyone knows we detest Trollish cretins....but i thought if i put this up, it may lull them into a sense of false security...and then i can POUNCE panther like...grrrrrrr, rippp, snarlll. I get hideously angry when people, any people, try to challenge my Radical Feminist views. Like it says in my profile, *It's my blog*

The Women Of Tehran

2006-06-18T14:18:00.000Z

"On Monday June 12th, a peaceful demonstration of women for equal rights was brutally suppressed by the police force even before the participants get any chance to voice their demands. More than 70 people are arrested and men and women were beaten up and tear gas was used. The demonstration was organized by a group of women activists as a follow up to the similar demonstration which was held last year in front of University of Tehran"

The sit-in on 12th June 2006 had been widely advertised online and was a peaceful plea to the Iranian government to change its unequal gender laws. The principle demands were as follows:
• Abolition of polygamy
• The right of divorce by women
• Joint custody of children for mothers and fathers
• Equal rights in family law
• Increasing the minimum legal age for girls to 18 (currently it is 15)
• Equal rights for women as witnesses in courts of law

When you see these women's plea's it's not very much is it?...chilling.
After reading several blogs of the women of Tehran , and various news accounts across the web, i couldn't help recognise just how far we've come. I've noticed a lot of Trolls use arguments like this to try and silence feminists. "but what about the poor women of Tehran?" yadda yadda yadda. No way is any oppression, of any women, any where in the world, going to take my eye off women here. Of course i've got goosbumps on my goosebumps when i read those reports. But i repeat, i will not take my eye of the ball, not for one minute.

Dragon Fly

2006-06-17T21:50:00.000Z

Not sure if this hideous lesion i have on my leg, IS the result of a greedy Dragon Fly pupae, but anyway here's a picture of a rather nicey D.F. that incidently, i have just copyed onto glass.

Condition Of Worth for Woman

2006-06-17T18:29:00.000Z

Self worth, self respect, self love, self esteem self...self..self as applied to women. Soopermouse's post on worth set me thinking (yet again) about how much i have struggled with this concept ...self, me, my-self. How, for so long i *looked out side of my-self* to stroke the ego, the self, to feel better, good, worthwhile, to love myself. How the patriachy gives me a checklist to tick off, too old? too fat? too thin? too gobby? too? too? too?.
Women have lost sight of them-selves. Pornograpy, prostitution, domestic violence, all tools of the Patriachy, all designed to keep us in our place. Religion started this ball rolling with the notion that women were created from men, not from the earth, but from men. How can a woman ever feel *WHOLE*, when she has never been allowed to be whole. Christianity indocrinating us from birth that we are inferior, we do not come from source, the alpha and omega, as men do; for we come from men.

What a message.

This dis-ease laid down in our bones, our body gradually turns to disease. Our bodies remember, passed on through the generations, imprinting on our DNA

Many of us have seen the *tools* the *weapons* that they use to keep us gasping for breath, feet bound, circumcised , naked and abused. Our image of self, our concept of who we are, contorted, boxed and packaged.

Those of us who *see* the weapons, the tools, will continue to fight.

Re-Post

2006-06-16T20:51:00.000Z

I'm posting "me" on a weird day again. Sometimes this feels rather safe in its familiarity...ahhhh bliss

PDP

2006-06-16T15:41:00.000Z

Also known as Personal Development Project. Very interesting day all round, and i feel i've done some pretty serious networking. I had a lengthy talk with the Communications Manager who works within Neuro Physiology. He took my number, as he was impressed with my previous experience, especially working with refugees, and asylum seekers. He has helped develop and implement "tools" for assesing the mental health status of refugees. I am SO interested in this field. I've got a good feeling about this one, Mmm thinky something might come of it.

As far as the PDP course goes I'm going to have some overlap with my work at Dilston, but i am just going to have to work around it somehow. I talked to Lisa (Finchley College Tutor) about one of the days that i would be unable to work and it was fine. I'm just going to have to sneek another one in and ask Dilson to change one day.

Rang Sarah about not wanting the job and it was fine (getting brave or what) She was expecting a refusal from moi, but she thought more on the lines of me not wanting to have C.I*. She apparantly has talked to Paul, and he agrees Wooooooo big fuck off deal right! that i must have the C.I.* to be able to do the job. Sarah feels that i "do not understand fully" about it all. Cheeky fucktard! I do understand, it just dosen't mean, that because i don't want a fucking Colonic, that i don't understand fully about the De-tox ethos.

Oh well... come the revolution, there's a few dick-heads i'm gonna have up against the wall.

* Colonic Irrigation (Hydrotherapy of the shitzer)

(Edit) I know Paul, and i don't believe for a minute that he *agreed* with Sarah: knowing him, i guess he said something along the lines of "Aye..Aye..Aye" just to keep the peace. It's interesting how people corrupt other's responses to fuel their own agenda...isn't it?

Definition Of Feminist

2006-06-15T20:51:00.000Z

I will give credit to the creator of this card, when i remember where the fuck i found it?
(edit) Found it! "Mind The Gap" Thanks "Mind the Gap"

Musings for Thursday

2006-06-15T17:42:00.000Z

I've been gardening at Dilston, just about all day, well 9:30 to 2:30 and i'm feeling pretty tired. Forgot to say i've got a huge/bite/allergic reaction thingy on my right calf. The Dilston lot say they have never seen anything like it before. I'd been working around the pond on saturday and Elaine (Mad Professor) says there is a Dragon Fly that has a gross evil caterpiller whotsit, that has a nasty bite. Fucking little twat!!

Tomorrow i go to the Personal Development Workshop event, so that may be interesting...
Definitely not going to work in the clinic. The two main points remain a) the travelling and b) hourly rate, client based. I will ring Sara tomorrow, and if she says anything questionable i will tell her straight.RHAAARRR! Joke...i will not shout, i will cut her short with my self-confident, takes not the shit,divin't be messing with me hinny, sort of approach.
AND, i nearly forgot! both my items on ebay have buyers!! whoopidy dooo, and there's 6 more days to go so the prices may still increase

I'v included the sparkely little fairy as i feel quite enchanted to day, which reminds me, i told Katrina and Elaine about, how, when i close my eyes i keep seeing plants! Apparantly it's quite common and the spiritual explanation is that i have taken on some of the plants spirit, essence,energy...now that is cool!
(edit) Elaine is a real life mad professor... in Neoro-Science to be exact.

Been To See Sarah

2006-06-14T19:32:00.000Z

Went down to Whitley Bay at the Lotus Clinic to see Sarah. As i mentioned in a previous post. my dealings with her had not inspired me much confidence. The clinic looks nice and proffessional and Sara wasn't as bad as i imagined, but i could still feel some sort of undercurrent, if you know what i mean? gut-instincts and all of that. Anyway, i have to get back to her soon to tell her of my decision. I doubt very much if i will take the job, my reasons are as follows:

1) Whitley Bay is freaking MILES away, well about 25 there and back,
making a round trip of 50 miles per day. Today's journey took one hour, and the traffic wasn't even all that heavy.

2) The pay is per hour per client, which means light day...light pay, and i forgot to ask about holiday enitlements. The initial job is part time, i don't know if i could run my flat on part time pay.

3) I have to have Colonic Hydrotherapy as part of my training. Sarah insists that you can't explain or guide someone through a proceedure, if you haven't experienced it your self. I replyed that's like saying you can't be a Midwife if you've never had a baby. I don't know if i want to have a C.I. Also it feels like a boundary issue, where i'm expected to discuss with client's what proceedures i partake of....Mmmmm

It dosen't look like i'm going to take it, does it?

Shame in a way, because i would get experience of running a clinic on my own, and learning many new de-tox procedures.

Nope! to summarize, the travelling, and hourly rate only is enough to stress me out.

Oh well, On friday, I start training, for facilitating "Personal Development" workshops...hope this is interesting, AND more lucrative.

Playboy Shite Targeting young Girls

2006-06-13T14:09:00.001Z

I am becoming even MORE aware lately, of how companys like "Playboy" are creeping snake like into our everyday life. The recent normalization of pornography into main stream acceptance has been the afore-mentioned Playboy with their pink glittery stationary, whose target is young girls. This is a subtle message to young girls that a life in the porn industry is something to be aspired to. It's simply NORMALIZING pornography. It's "cool" to be a porn star...i wonder if most people realize that the VAST majority of porn workers are survivors of sexual abuse, and i'm talking around 75%. Yup around 75% of women in porn have experienced child hood sexual abuse. Not so sexeee now is it, unless you are an abuser of course. This is without taking into account how Porn harms the women performing, and damages the very fabric of our society, by saying loud and clear "women are just fuckholes, three holes to be exact! to be used as a ejaculation spitoon for semen" that "women want to be raped"and "when a woman says "no" she really means "yes"
WHS have refused to take down their display of Playboy stationary for girls, even though many other retailers have complied.

What this awareness underscores for me is that we live in rape culture that is incredibly entrenched in all our minds, that this works powerfully against us no matter how conscious we feel we are.

Sign the petition link below:

http://www.petitionthem.com/default.asp?sect=detail&pet=1897

Anti Rape Poster

2006-06-12T16:28:00.000Z

I'm in quite a picture[esc] sort of mood to day. I post the following anti-rape poster courtesy of
Amy at Feminist Reprise.
Pornograpy perpetuates the "Rape myth" i.e women want to be raped. When a woman says "no" she really means "yes".
Listen...when a woman says "no" you better believe it, or you might find yourself in jail with a very strange bedfellow, who couldn't give a shit what's coming out of YOUR trap. He'd be too busy thinking about a nice bit of a**l that he knows you "really" want.

The Alternatives?

2006-06-12T11:26:00.000Z

I came across this poster quite a while back, very simply it portrays a disturbing picture, showing the polarities that the patriachy can impose, or should i say, [have] inflicted upon women...
Mmm Bunny Girl or Body Bag...anyone?

2006-06-12T09:53:00.000Z

I found that it is always better to fight than not to fight, always no matter what. -Andrea Dworkin

Ebay

2006-06-12T09:17:00.000Z

I've done it! i'm actually selling two items on ebay! Now, i've bought quite a lot of bits and pieces myself, but never actually sold anything. It won't be the end of the world, if they don't sell [although it would be nice]
It seemed to take ages getting the wording and picture sizes right, but non the less i've done it, and i feel quite proud. It has definately been a "learning experience" as i know the ropes now!

Kundalini Defined-Origins of the word c***

2006-06-11T19:23:00.000Z

Kundalini is more correctly pronounced KhuNDhALini
in the transliteration of Sanskrit into "English", "T" [kunti] is often written instead of "D" and pronounced with the tongue in the T position and spoken with a grunt as in "Dh" .. so that, for example, "Tao" is more correctly pronounced "Dh'ow". Similarly, there is a huge difference between K and Kh
Kundalini defined
Kun is the Earth ... add the "di" (sometimes spelt "ti") and its the little pot of earth in the earth (one cell) .. and the bits added to the end which some transcribe as "lini" is the perpetual consciousness of the alpha and the omega expressed as potential ..
Kundalini is the energy of our natural physical beingness - the life energy of each cell of the Physical Body.Kundalini is the latent potential of the Feminine Principle of Creation - the Life-Force and life consciousness of every cell of all physical life.
Kundalini is the Refiner's Fire which straightens out the mind's distortions of Life and Nature.
Kundalini - from its roots
Kh'
a dot (black stone); hollow, aperture (sometimes symbolised by the open vagina), the cup; the yoni as the feminine symbolised
u'
the moon calling to the sun
N'
wave (as of the ocean) ebb and flow of consciousness
Dh'
virtue, merit, true wealth as in receptive, assuming focus of that which is inner
A'
the concept of going inward, within or in; the feminine of the first sound (sruti) (hidden) from which all words are formed and from which all life emanates as a bidirectional action
li'
to adhere and to hold; to rock, pulse, sway, tremble, vibrate
n'
the lotus plant; the pearl; the primal mother; seed; naked
i'
to pervade as perception or consciousness; to go beyond; to grow; to evolve;
Kundalini is more correctly pronounced KhuNDhAlini
in the transliteration of Sanskrit into "English", "T" (Kunti) is often written instead of "D" and pronounced with the tongue in the T position and spoken with a grunt as in "Dh" .. so that, for example, "Tao" is more correctly pronounced "Dh'ow". Similarly, there is a huge difference between K and Kh
Kundalini defined
Kun is the Earth ... add the "di" (sometimes spelt "ti") and its the little pot of earth in the earth (one cell) .. and the bits added to the end which some transcribe as "lini" is the perpetual consciousness of the alpha and the omega expressed as potential ..
Kundalini is the energy of our natural physical beingness - the life energy of each cell of the Physical Body.Kundalini is the latent potential of the Feminine Principle of Creation - the Life-Force and life consciousness of every cell of all physical life.
Kundalini is the Refiner's Fire which straightens out the mind's distortions of Life and Nature.
Kundalini - from its roots
Kh'
a dot (black stone); hollow, aperture (sometimes symbolised by the open vagina), the cup; the yoni as the feminine symbolised
u'
the moon calling to the sun
N'
wave (as of the ocean) ebb and flow of consciousness
Dh'
virtue, merit, true wealth as in receptive, assuming focus of that which is inner
A'
the concept of going inward, within or in; the feminine of the first sound (sruti) (hidden) from which all words are formed and from which all life emanates as a bidirectional action
li'
to adhere and to hold; to rock, pulse, sway, tremble, vibrate
n'
the lotus plant; the pearl; the primal mother; seed; naked
i'
to pervade as perception or consciousness; to go beyond; to grow; to evolve;
CW

* I used c*** because i didn't want to attract inadequate, little Cretins lookin for w**k bank material. GO SUCK YOUR OWN C**K

Grandfather's Birthday

2006-06-11T17:22:00.000Z

Oh! i've just realised it would have been my Grandad's birthday today! i don't have a clue how old he would have been, but my guess is 103. I'm sure he was born in 1903? I wonder what he would have made of 2006? quite scarey when you think of it like that. I loved my grandad he was the closest i had to a father.

Feminism in disharmony

2006-06-11T17:13:00.000Z

I don’t claim to be, educated, well-spoken or well-versed in feminist theory. I do, however, claim to be a woman, and a wise woman at that; who has a right to an opinion. Lately I have been somewhat discouraged by the division that is evident in so many of the feminist circles. We waste so much energy discussing, and quite frankly "who is the most academic". Personally, I am sick of discussing and academia has it's place. And, I am also pretty sick of pretentiousness and division. I wish we would stop fighting among ourselves. Men love a "Cat fight"...lets stop fighting petty battles and concentrate our energies in where they really belong. FIGHTING THE PATRIACHY

*Edit: Unsure whether to use this picture, due to the possibility that my motives may be misunderstood. Lets be very clear here...i decided to keep this picture up as it highlights just- oh- so -clearly how women DON'T have a voice. Courtesy of Pornography of course.

Can't upload pictures

2006-06-11T16:51:00.000Z

Update... I've been trying in [vain] to upload a couple of pictures, oh well never mind, i'm sure i'll work it out. Got a bit head mashed with it all and going to have a drinkie! I've been starving all day and have bowed to the "Beauty myth" shite and have not fed my face as much as i have wanted to.
Mmmm
Even radical feminists can bow down to pressure sometimes. I just down bow down to anything [male] hahaha!
Drat! i wish i could get my pics up! my favourite one of "god wants a piece of my ass" been itching to use it.
(edit: uploading is working purrrfectly now)

Job finding

2006-06-11T15:43:00.000Z

Mmmm I've been offered a job to start in roughly September of this year. It's to work at a complementary de-tox clinic offering Colonic Hydrotherapy. At first, i had a lot of energy for this work, and thought i would be learning a skill to complement my Nursing experience. In fact i may be able to strike forth! and do it on a free lance basis. Well you may add, you don't sound all that sure to me Sparkle*

The woman who would be employing me, her name is Sara, is getting on my nerves...basically! She's been rather rude in her manner with me and it's pissing me off! I don't need to go into specific details how exactly, because that's my subjective experience.
I know i'm a tad "sensitive" at times but wtf! She has what i would describe as poor [shite] interpersonal skills and it's annoying me. I don't think it would work, me working for her [for her... been the operative words here] I've noticed that i'm giving her far too much of my energy for christ's sake...stop it!!
I'm going to go down on wednesday and if it dosen't *feel* right then that's it, simple in a nut shell. If she is cheeky again i am going to tell her. FUCK OFF

Think about it "something" is not right here, think....i'm dreading going to see her and i don't even WORK for her. Mmmm i think that is saying something...do you?

Musings of Sparkle*Matrix

2006-06-11T15:34:00.000Z

Decided to get myself a Blog, mostly for me to ramble and journal life events as they happen. To refect and to see "in the moment" where i have been and hopefully where i may go, stay, or change direction completely. Hopefully giving a clarity to my choices by giving me a tool to self explore.

Sparkle*Matrix

I've Ran Away.~

Sparkle*Announcement

Sparkle*s Museum of Patriarchal Sexual Oddities~Now Supplies Free Sick Bags

Full Moon Goddess Sophia~Goddess Of Female Wisdom

The Alter Of The Sparkle*Matrix

You Have Been Tagged!

Sparkle*s Museum of Patriarchal Sexual Oddities

Router Suddenly Reinvents Her Self

Communications Breakdown

Houses Of Patriarchy ~Under New Management

Sparkle*s Museum of Patriarchal Sexual Oddities

Blayboy Logo Has No Pornographic Connections (within their "target market" )~WH Smut's Spokeswoman, From Planet Zog

Consumption and identity

Out With Her Tongue!

The End Of The Patriarchal Period

What Is Good For The Goose Is Good For The Gander?

Free Speech And Anti-Censorship~Hypocrisy At Its Finest

Which Mouse Would You Have Mousing In Your Anus?

Free Speech And Anti-Censorship My Ass!

Sparkle*voodoo™ Doll Kit

OH NOOOO!

I have had a vision

Cards For Friendships

My View On Things

Call Me Cynical~Pervy Pumpers

Mother

"I AM the Annihilator of all and anything that is not worthy of keeping."

Give Away Comment For Today

Discussion On Lad's Mags~Guardian

Counterbalance~ Courtesy Of The Internet

Goddess Send For Women~The Sex Machine~

A Metaphor For Women In Chains?

The Madness Hamsters

Planned Parenthood federation~Fake Clinics

The Daily Squirt™ "Newspaper"

The Unravelling Of Two Balls Of String

Through The Eyes Of An Abuser

Women As Dolls~Some Musings

Quest For The *Perfect Woman*?~Part II

Quest For The *Perfect Woman*?~Part I

Up-Date ~Girrlz~Sexxxy Sid's New 36DD's!!

Ball-ssiere For Sid's Nuts

The Meaning Of Nuts By Sid

Mi.sog.y.ny, Religion And The Witch Hunts~Part VII

Mi.sog.y.ny, Religion And The Witch Hunts~Part VI

Where's Barbie?

Full Moon Tonight

Mi.sog.y.ny, Religion And The Witch Hunts~Part V

Timmy (the Tiger) 15 Years Old Today

Misandry~Hatred Of Men

Reasons To Hate Men~Mi.sog.y.ny And The Military ( Link)

Mi.sog.y.ny, Religion And The Witch Hunts~Part IV

Mi.sog.y.ny, Religion And The Witch Hunts~A Short Ditty

Mi.sog.y.ny, Religion And The Witch Hunts~Part III

Mi.sog.y.ny, Religion And The Witch Hunts~Part II

Mi.sog.y.ny And Religion

Mi.sog.y.ny And Religion, Some Origins~Part I

Create Your Own Title?~What Does This Picture Say To You?

For All Those Who Think Lad's Mags Are Just Harmless Fun

More On Barely Bipedal~All 1st Sparkle*mendment Rights Apply~Free Speech

More On Barely Bipedal ~This Picture Of A Lad's Mags Reader Is Protected By the 1st Sparkle*mendment~

Are Men Who Read Lad's Mags Barely Bipedal? Shock Report!!

Lad's Mags A Bad Influence On Chirdren And teenagers? Question Been Posed In The Media

Ode To A Troll

A Mouse Story

A Mouse Story

Another Pyro' Brighton 13th May (My Birthday)

Pyrotechnics At Brighton May 13th 2006

Donkey Punch

Love Your Body You Goddess

Woman In Body Bag a.k.a. Burqas

My Own Internal Patriachy And The Hairy Hand

Shut The Fuck Up Bitch ( Courtesy of Pornography)

Sparkle* The Card Maker

The Women Of Tehran

Dragon Fly

Condition Of Worth for Woman

Re-Post

PDP

Quest For The Perfect Woman?~Part II

Quest For The Perfect Woman?~Part I